Bipolar Type II Support Group

The past couple weeks or more I've been really depressed off and on - like suicidal depression - but I've felt a little better the past couple days, at least a little more stable. When I get tired though, I still have thoughts of killing myself. It's like a habit that I just fall into withut realizing it. Does this happen to anyone else?

I'm sorry you have been depressed. Those thoughts are not good. I'd tell your psychiatrist for sure. You will probably need something for those thoughts. They need to do something about it. I hope that you can get this taken care of soon.

I too have been fighting depression for a few months now. When I get those thoughts I do tell my pdoc and get a med adjustment. Hope you can talk to your pdoc and get something to help.

I get suicidal a lot at night, it's scary. I may be depressed through the day but like you, when tired these horrible thoughts and plans enter my head and I just want to sleep to shut them out. In the morning I don't thing about it even when I am down. At least I know if I get a good night's sleep (with meds) then i will be better in the morning.

Candjob, that's just how I've been feeling! I can have a pretty good day, and it's at the point now where I don't think I would act on it, but they still come at night. I'm on 150mg of Lamictal now, and 10mg of Abilify, but neither of them have made a difference. It's discouraging because I know Lamictal is supposed to be the golden standard for treating bp2, so what else is there for me? My pdoc won't put me on an antidepressant because he thinks it would make me more unstable.

Interesting, my doctor is implementing Abilify now to help augment the continuing depression. I do have daily mood cycles which is rare and you must have them too--very hard to treat and it has totally killed my social life with the mood swings at night. I think your pdoc should try the anti-depressants..it can't hurt to try, if it doesn't work you will know very quickly.

I'm on 300mg of Lamictal, I cant take Abilify so I'm still using Zyprexa 5-10mg as needed for when I'm having those thoughts. I like it best of all the anti-psychotics except for the Zyprexa munchies I get while on it.

I've also noticed I've become kind of near-sighted since starting the Abilify. I don't know if it's a coincidence or not but it worries me. That's the only thing I've noticed since starting the Abilify. I still think about suicide when I'm really tired, like an old habit or something. It's not even something I would do at this point, and I've been feeling fine for the past couple of days regardless. My moods are very situation dependent I think. If things go well, I feel great, if they don't, I go into a severe depression. The mood swings are too extreme to just be regular mood swings though. It's really weird.

I feel exactly like you. The other night out of the blue I starte thinking of running my car into things while I was driving on the interstate. It scared me. I also think of my meds too. I have so many of them right now, but I don't really want to do it.

I have become near sighted since starting my medication as well. These meds can affect the eyes. I have to wear glasses now to see far away.