Bipolar Type II Support Group

I really let my dh have it the other day, and now I feel soooo guilty. I just went off on him. I expected him to want to go to an event with me, and he thought I could go alone. Little did he (or I) know how much that would hurt me - his disinterest. He went out of guilt, and that poisoned the whole experience. By 3 that day, when there were finally no people around to hear, I told him how I really felt. And we hashed things out. But I brought up old stuff, stuff I've long forgiven him, and that was playing dirty. He just took it. He's a very patient man. We made up, and he even took me on a surprise date that evening!

I feel awful. I know it's my emotions out of check. I had to add in Celexa in April because I was crying all the time for 2 weeks, and I thought I was doing ok, but then this...

Does anyone alse have out-of-proportion reactions to stuff? That you think is bp-related?

Yes. Just the other day I really laid it on a co-worker in another branch, who was at our office the other day, for talking about people so negatively. I think it wrong to talk badly about people, but I've never let into anyone about it before. I'm usually a quite, non-confrontational type person.

I have experiences when I overreact to something or I get upset with my husband for no good reason. Sometimes I think he should be able to read my mind. It's hard for me to confront him so I become passive aggressie. He's my rock, though, and he calmly tells me my perspective is different and goes over what happened.

I've totally laid into my boyfriend many time. A crying crazy person going off on things that have built up in my head. Things that bother me to the point I flip out. It's quite embarrassing when this happens. Medications have eliminated this for me and I am so grateful.

"A crying crazy person going off on things that have built up in my head."

Yep, that was me. I thought my meds were working... Really, I'm still working up to 6 wks on Celexa. It had been 4 by the time I flipped out. I started having depression symptoms early April, and I needed more than the lithium. I don't know why, perhaps the ridiculously high amount of rainy days that I'm not used to...

I hope the Celexa kicks in soon, for his and my sake!

Medications have definitely helped me with the emotional reactivity in general. Problem is, I tend to binge drink pretty hardcore, and I get extremely hostile and overreact to things when I'm really drunk...hell, sometimes there isn't even something that sets me off...I'll just be angry all of the sudden and start yelling at whoever is in my way. And then of course I feel terribly guilty afterward and like a complete jerk.

Anyone else run into this problem? And yes, in theory I could just not drink, but it never seems to work out that way.

My family triggers me that way and I feel so badly after. For me it's pent up emotions with just totally unleashed emotions that come out and for some reason it's just always the same people that elicit my outbursts.

It's definitely part of our BP. My poor husband: I snap at him over the stupidest things sometimes. It's ridiculous, but he mostly ignores it, bless his heart.

My mother also gets more than her fair share of snaps. I don't know exactly why she triggers me, but she sure does. I love her to bits and she's always been a great mom, but somehow she can irritate me more than anyone on earth. It may be because she's always asking me questions and for some reason being questioned about anything is a huge trigger for me. Meds are helping a lot, though, so take heart.

Give your meds a chance to work. If they don't work, there are others to try. It took me several to get it right but I feel great now, calm and happy. What a change from a few months ago!

boy oh boy does this ring true. and it's SO embarassing. I am much better about it now, but it still happens. usually the trigger is My Angel and his perceived not caring about me. He's told me a million times it's all in my head, but sometimes I just sob and beg him to love (platonically) me. he is wonderful and ignores it. He really is my best friend. And I don't deserve his patience with me.

The guilt is almost unbearable. Its like you react and explode and its out there before you know it. Like the tv show snapped! I snap all the time. The tension that builds up when an episode is luming is unreal. I can tell when I am on the brink of an explosion. My husband, however chooses to ignore me which really sends me off into a tantrum. Its a force that I can't control. I am absolutely out of control. I want to reel myself back in but often times its too late! When does it end? Is this how its gonna be for the rest of my life? OMG! Then the calming comes and you expect everyone else to instantaneously heal from the harm you've done. I feel exactly what you are saying 100%.