Bipolar Type II Support Group

If you were following me a long time ago and talking to me and are wondering why I haven't posted in a long time here is why... I have everything I have ever wanted in life and more now and 99% of my problems are virtually non existant anymore... I will briefly explain... If it's possible read some of my older posts to see what I was going through... Maybe even before you read this... I checked my self into a rehab facility and then I checked myself into a mental hospital all that took a combined six weeks... the rehab place did nothing... It was just hell... the mental facility was SOOOO amazing. I was able to try pretty much every combination of meds in the book and I REALIZED NOTHING WORKED FOR ME IT ALL MADE ME WORSE... So I went back to JUST taking vyvanse fifty mg 1 in the morning monday through saturday... and rest on sundays... I have my entire life back now... I gotta make this short because my phone is blowing up because a lot of people want to hang out with me now... ITS CRAZY... I GUESS MY MESSAGE IS THIS... IF YOU HAD SOMETHING THAT HAD PROVEN IT HAD WORKED BUT YOU "THOUGHT" IT DIDN'T WORK ANYMORE SO YOU HAD TO CHANGE IT AND NOW YOU ARE WORSE THAN BEFORE... GO BACK TO WHAT YOU WERE DOING WHEN IT WORKED!!!!! IT WASN'T YOUR MEDS OR YOU THAT NEEDED CHANGED IT WAS SOMETHING OUT SIDE OF YOU THAT WAS MAKING YOU MISERABLE!!!! I WAS PUT ON CYMBALTA, LAMICTAL, RESPERIDAL, WELLBUTRIN, CELEXA, TEGRETOL, MELATONIN, AND ATLEAST FIVE OTHER MEDS IN A SPAN OF A YEAR.... FUCK ALL THAT SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!! IV'E GOT MY LIFE BACK NOW AND I DIDN'T WANT TO POST SOMETHING UNTIL I KNEW I WAS BACK TO MYSELF BECAUSE I CHANGED THE WAY I THOUGHT, CHANGED STUFF AROUND ME, AND GOT OFF ALL THE MEDS AND WENT BACK TO WHAT WORKED, IM TWENTY YEARS OLD... BACK TO BEING CONFIDENT AS HELL, AND JUST ABOUT TO GO HANG WITH SOME HOT CHICKS LOL...Hopefully this touches someones heart, motivates and maybe ends up working for someone else who went through the same struggle as me... IF YOU READ MY OLD POSTS... I FUCKING WANTED TO KILL MYSELF AND NOW I NEVER WANT TO DIE EVARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR... PLEASE HEAR THE PASSION IN MY VOICE AND KNOW THAT THERE IS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL!!!!! I GUARANTEE I WAS AS BAD OR WORSE THAN MOST OF YOU FOR THE SPAN THAT I WAS DOWN IN DEPRESSION, BIPOLAR WHATEVER THEY CALLED IT... DON'T worry I didn't want to post this until I was sure I was good again... iv'e been good for 3 straight months ... I think thats enough evidence... fuck doctors listen to your heart... I WILL SAY IT AGAIN... "IF" there was a time in your life where you were genuinely happy as a person and happy with yourself, GO BACK TO THE WAY YOU WERE LIVING THEN (MED WISE) (LIFESTYLE WISE) (PEOPLE WISE) (EVERYTHING WISE) and just because you have gone through some shitty times doesn't mean you need pills and shit to make you better... I was diagnosed, bipolar, bipolar 2, schizoaffective, depressed, anxiety... and now i am diagnosed "AWESOME" I thought about killing myself everyday for a year people... everything I say is true and i wouldn't come on here on a saturday night to lie to a bunch of struggling people... I know your battle... BELIEVE ME!!!!! This is my last post ever... I love you all and WILL NEVER EVER LOOK DOWN UPON SOMEONE WHO IS GOING THROUGH WHAT I DID... because I know what it's like... and I am stronger in myself than I have ever been before and NOBODY CAN EVER FUCKING TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME... AGAIN i love you all, god bless every one of you... please please please don't give up... hear the emotion in my voice and know the truth of it... if your situation is anything like mine was (after reading my old posts) try what im telling you... i gotta go live my night up... (completely drug free mind you lol)

I love you guys... were all in this together and im one of the lucky ones who got out but not without suffering and working hard to find out the problem...

peace and love-

MrSexualthunder

ACTUALLY... NEVERMIND... I GUESS IT'S BEEN ABOUT 2 MONTHS THAT IVE BEEN BETTER... JUST READ MY OLD POSTS...

I guess I'm wondering what else they did at the mental hospital besides playing with meds? Because... I guess I don't understand your progression. if you were on vyvanse before.. why did you change? YOur pdoc must have felt like things weren't good.. or perhaps you felt that way? why did you change meds in the first place if you were feeling well to start out with? I'm just curious, I guess, because I'd really like to be where you are... but I'm not.. nor have I ever been. I haven't been happy since my early college days..

I also wanted to ask.. you seem REALLY up... do you think that you could be a little hypomanic? I'd really like a little of that right now.. as it's been pretty miserable for me lately...

Just remember this is a lifelong disorder. It's awesome you're feeling so great now, but make sure you pay attention.

Wow...how awesome! I wish I could find that med combination that would turn me around. Keep up that positive attitude because you are a true inspiration to others that there is hope

-Lil-

hey lil,

mrsexualthunder hasn't been on since 8-16-2011. From what I gather of this post is he gave up meds and went back to the way he lived when he was happy. I'm not sure if it ever lasted more than a couple months. It is encouraging knowing we can become happy and stable though 2 months of feeling good is not a very long time.

People come and go from here so fast it's hard to keep track. There is hope for all of us to have happy productive lives with the right treatment. Everyone is different.

I agree with Rick. Two months of feeling better isn't a long time to base your decision on stopping medications. I'm worried about mrsexualthunder because you could have a relapse anytime and what are you going to do then? Have you consulted with a doctor before getting off meds? Don't get me wrong, I am grateful that you are feeling so happy and strong. You have to think about what you will do in the future if you start feeling like you did when you were severely depressed. I'm not trying to sound negative but if you are truly are bipolar then you need to listen to other things besides your heart.

Thank you for posting and letting us know how you are doing. Best Wishes

Hey all,

This is a dead thread mrsexualthunder was Last Online 08/16/2011 01:27 PM

So he hasn't been back since this last post in 2011.

This happens sometimes and we have a very high volume, dynamic group here in BPII.

the turnover is very high with this group. I think we have the highest of all the

bipolar groups.

The tone of this post is pulsing mr thunder....I have felt that way too and usually I was doing things that weren't so great for me and made me feel good....at the time. It's great that you are feeling good though. I wish you the best!