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I just love you guys! Norma, that was great! It could be scar tissue, but the surgery was 7-8 yrs ago...and honestly, we have tried a few positions - but they only last about 3 minutes or so...then we're done! (whew) I'm have hang-ups in the bedroom so I'm trying to eliminate any possible causes of crappy sex(but in my mind sometimes I'd be willing to try just about anything - I'm 37 for crying out loud! It's true what they say about your 30s...) I was raped by two men 20 years ago, which really sucked. I had become comfortable in the bedroom again with my husband (5 times a day - joy!!) - then on our honeymoon the son-of-a-bitch went and got irritated when I commanded him to do something (something regular) but I used a dirty word...(back then he wanted the sweet bride - now he's dying for a whore)...so I absolutely lost all confidence I had built up, and it's been downhill from there. That's 15 yrs ago. I'm neurotic. But I told him - 'If everytime you had sex you felt like you were being punched, then never got to finish, would you want to bother?' His answer is always 'yes'. SO, now I'm in my 30s, probably with the best body I've ever had - seems to be in fine working order - moreso than ever before.... I'm comfortable with myself - but I don't know how to tell him what to do (he's forgotten EVERYTHING)...'cause lord knows he'd do ANYTHING right about now. I don't know what's normal...what's okay to do. What should I feel silly doing? I think it's been too many years that my anxiety had me frozen stiff during sex, making 'dear lord, please let this end soon' or 'oh! don't touch me there' or 'that tickles' faces. He treats me like a china doll. And really, he kinda has to because (like I said above) the poor man is just plain bigger than me. I almost wish he'd have an affair to loosen himself up, come home and just act like he did when he was 25. (minus the thrusting) I'm on Lamictal 200 - Lithium 900 - Ritalin LA 40 - Klonopin 1mg - and something for sleep that I'm going to ask them to change because I just dream ALL NIGHT LONG - mostly about Brad Pitt, Christian Bale and large houses with swimming pools. failure is a prerequisite to success |
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Thanks, by the way, for everyone's feedback...who else can you ask questions like this to?
YOU ARE FUNNY AS HELL! I'm glad we can come here and laugh and talk about all the craziness in our lifes, well anyway ,sometimes,right, its just nice knowing you have someone to listen and talk back! So the dr. didnt say anythings about the way you hve been feeling? I still have my ovaries also but I am still crazy as a bat at times and they put me on some new meds .....If you dont mind me asking [this may be to personal] what meds are you on? I hope i didnt cross a boundery.. you just seem so easy to talk to..get back with me!!--ANGIE--
