Anyone Awake, May 9th, no topic discussion

Shelly, most of my past were just boy toys, something to play with and then send home..lol.. hubby came into the picture and I felt safe to let the little girl in me come out of hiding after all the abuse she had been put through.. I had developed a alter ego, named Dragon lady by my brothers, she would just as soon rip your juggler out than give you the time of day, after meeting Glenn I realized that she needed to be put to sleep, she had served her purpose, she helped me to cope and make it through a traumatic childhood.. like most of us here have had, I started seeking out help for what was going on with me, put on antidepressants for years, labeled as severely depressed, well that explained the depression side, but didn't cover the moodswings, rage/anger and panic attacks, after trying to commit suicide in July this past year, I got out of the hospital and the doctors over at Mental health wanted me to stay on the meds I was taking prior to the attempt, I was like what the hell makes you think they are going to work now as they didn't before this..? 4 bloody anti's at once and I was still depressed enough to try, I fought for a reconsideration, got the bipolar II diagnosis and was put on the Lamictal and weaned off all the others.. haven't felt better in my life, with the exception of the occasional stress, but that is caused by outside influence..

When I visited the USA recently I was blown away by how strong the coffee was - it was thermonuclear!

Carmen, thanks for pointing me in the direction of that lovely elixir. I barely have my eyes open right now.

I haven't been to Europe yet but I used to have some clients who were from Turkey. They would make this coffee on the stove that was so far beyond mud...it was potting mix! You could have planted a daisy or two in the pot it was so thick and full of texture! LOL. Tasted great though - not at all bitter.

Joe you've gone and done it, your coffee has woken up the birds at my end of the block..