Anyone Awake, May 9th, no topic discussion

I hope I get lucky too. That would be nice. My hubby travels for work most days during the week so I can stay up late and no one is effected (except me LOL!) . I already feel less lonely having only joined this site yesterday.

Shelly, there is always someone around here, we have some that are night owls, here in the states, here it is currently 5AM on the east coast where I am at, bummer about your hubby being out of town, you have to miss having him around.

Joe, what can you do about making the coffee without waking the household? lol, our birds are either being very quiet this morning or they are still asleep..

I have been rapid cycling for about 3 years since being giving Aropax for anxiety. no BP was diagnosed at that point. Have never been in hospital but have psychotic symptoms from time to time.

My hubby and I travelled to the states in March. It was so much fun. We took the kids to Disneyland. I bought a t-shirt in San Fran. It says 'Alcatraz Pyscho Ward Outpatient' across the front. My husband just hates it. I just wear it to bed or cleaning the house. I think it's hysterical... If you can't take the mickey out of yourself - who can? LOL

I 'm okay with the thought of lifelong meds. Haven't started yet so the reality of it will probably hit me when I start taking them. My pdoc has said it will be probably lifelong for me. I'm just relived to have a proper diagnoses. Have been BP since aged 11. 20 years riding the rollarcoaster..

Shelly, accepting the diagnosis is one of the hardest things most people have to do, because of the stigma attached to "mental illness" most folks don't want to believe they possibly could have one, but the fact is we do, and we have to have help for it.. I've had to deal with this for so long on my own that having someone around to share this with has been frightening.. hubby is there for me when I need someone, but during the early part of our relationship, I found myself pushing him away when he would try... he knows more about me than anyone in my life has ever knew..

Carmen - I blame Red. I have not channeled my inner geek in a long time. Then, poof, he mentions computers. I will try to channel another side when Glen comes on. How about the sleep deprived side. It is way too early and I went to bed way too late last night.

Joe, Shelly - Nice to see the both of you. Hang in there with the medicaitons. When they finally do get it right, it is sooo worth all of the hassles.

Carmen dear, WHERE'S THAT COFFEE?????

Carmen - I totally relate 150% to what you said about your hubby. Every other guys I saw I would be okay for a while and then push away. If it wasn't for having our daughter I know I may not have been able to stick with it. She helped me break my bad habits because there are some commitments even BP influences can't break.

My hubby knows more about me that anyone I have even known. I have told him everything about my experiences growing up - even the embarrassing and shameful things that have happened. I don't know what I would do without him. It's still hard to let people in. No one wants to admit they are not coping...it's like admitting failure. It sits so much better in my head now that I know that I am just sick. I am not a failure. I am just a person who is ill from time to time.