My husband is very involved politically so I am occasionally called upon to go to big important dinners with big important muckity-mucks who make me nervous as hell even though they are all nice people. I have had more than one panic attacks over these things. My husband asks me as rarely as possible but for various reasons this is one I really have to go to. This is my first time going to one since being stable and on meds so I keep telling myself to expect it to be better as really all evidence points to it being fine now. Still I am beyond anxious. Even got a little manic and spendy today over it and even bought and smoked cigs even though I just quit. I can't talk to my husband about being anxious as he really needs me to be a strong partner so pardon this long vent. I just had an appt with my therapist and I wish I had brought this up! Ok big long ramble. If you've read this far please toss a few calm, collected, maybe even charming thoughts, prayers or 'vibes' my way. You don't even have to post them, just think them!  "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanore Roosevelt
"If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete." Jack Kornfield
"My goal in life is to be the person my dogs think I am" anonymous
bipolar/ADD
Depakote 1250 mg
Cymbalta 120 mg
propranolol 20 mg
geoden 160
I quit smoking May 28th 2012!
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