Bipolar Support Group

Like many here, I was raised under the figurative roof of religion. Catholicism, to be exact. Baptized, confirmed, fed wine, yadda yadda. Thing is, I had no faith in it from day one. At about the age of 14 I came out to my family and stated that I wasn't simply unsure, I was certain of myself. In other words, I was and am an Atheist. Funny thing is, my mom told me she was Agnostic which is why she never actually joined us at church.

I just believe in what can be known and all that's been proven, eliminating the need for systems of beliefs originally meant to explain the unexplained that is now very explainable. Other than that, if you're a good person and put some of your time in the struggle of others, I'll both respect and want to emulate you. Any religion, like a few that shall remain nameless, that dumps on others for any reason and focuses on beliefs rather than acts are just horrible to me. As far as many Christians are concerned, serial molesters and killers go to heaven because they worship Christ. On the other hand, someone like Gandhi would burn in hell for being Hindu. Even Mother Teresa claimed to question her beliefs years before her passing, so I guess her lifelong selfless acts are tossed out the window and she's thrown to the brimstone, too.

Oddly enough, I love theology and always try to read as much as I can. I'm not the type to shove my "nonbeliever" views in anyone's face, but I've spent years reading up on and particularly studying Buddhism, Hinduism, all current and past forms of Paganism, Shinto, Judaism, Islam, Christianity, and loads others including small and large cults branching off from all of these. It really interests me.

To me, death is basically fainting out and then flatlining. There's nothing to see or do. Therefore, your time to look forward to and make the best of is here, physically on earth. I don't care what anyone believes any more than I care what they do or say; as long as it's all peaceful, consensual when others are involved, and doesn't harm anyone, I'm fine. I really could easily go on, but I'll end it here for now.

I really feel like God tells me things. I see His angels. I get attacked by demons especially this stringy haired girl that tries to tell me to kill myself. I'm going to be starting on medication soon but I am getting several people telling me that this is spiritual warfare, not psychosis. Kinda lost. :

You sound like you are having psychotic symptoms. When we have a history of being bipolar or schitzophrenia psychosis can happen. I was psychotic a long time ago, it felt like spiritual warfare a lot of the time sometmes i enjoyed it too like i saw the virgin Mary in my room and I heard voices, was seeing things and the tv/radio was giving me messages, and the world was going to end, everything seemed so real i became dangerous to myself and others b/c i did not know i was ill...so i was committed to a psychiatric hospital for 9wks. Once you take medications these symptoms should go away, i hope. I believe God does speak to us in various ways and the evil does too but rarely, I believe God's love for us is very strong stronger than the evil one's power his power is nothing...but in your case it sounds more like you are suffering psychosis. I'm not your doctor but i recall in another post you mentioned you were diagnosed as maybe having scitzoaffective bipolar.

I believe that there is power above and beyond humans, but as I can't name it, I say I'm agnostic. I find it beautiful and inspiring when people can have faith and personal spirituality in a creator of this amazing world (especially in the midst of what can be dibilitating disease for so mant of us).

I'm personally not a fan of pre- boxed religion where masses can follow blindly and thoughtlessly. I do not see that as the case in this thread as each poster has heart-feltly owned their beliefs as a source of meaning in their lives.

I find meaning in honoring the earth and my own part in it. It helps me feel like a part of life, like I belong here, an antedote to feeling lost and thus suicidal. Transcending specific beliefs, I think all faiths of merit honor love, and maybe light of some kind.

Peace

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Post edited by: lily84, at: 05/19/2013 06:37 AM