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07/02/2008 10:07 AM
armymom8486
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[color=#800080][/color Well how do I start. Hmmmm...I guess I just have to spill it.

It seems like everytime I'm on everything in my life is going ok,but when I'm not that is when everything hits the fan.Ermm

I have a husband that is an alcholic and a narrcisist(sp). On Saturday night he came home again drunk which pissed me off. He was in a cocky mood. When I was pouring my milk he found it funny because of the fact that I was shaking so bad (side effect from meds) so instead of walking away I threw the milk on him and my floor. (not the glass). I know my life sounds like a soap, but I just need to get this out. He called the police who just told him to find a place to sober up. He left for 2 days. He is back now and we are kinda talking. I know I would have left but I am completly finacially dependent on him at the moment.

ok thats where I am. This whole thing has upset my mood and my sleeping pattern. Honestly I am not sure what's up anymore. I never thought I would want to take my evening meds before, but now I look foward to it.

Ok their it is there thanks for listening. I appriciate it so so much. Jeanne

"These are the days of our lives" LOL
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07/02/2008 10:19 AM  Top
WARHORSE
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Jeanne: It's Ok... we all get frustrated at times. (I've wanted to slap hubby so many times I couldn't count them all! And I'm not even BP, he is!). You sound like you have your hands VERY full. Take it easy on yourself. What you are going thru can't be easy, especially with your BP. Hang in there!
"Well I won't back down
No I won't back down
You can stand me up at the gates of Hell
But I won't back down

No I'll stand my ground
Won't be turned around
And I'll keep this world from dragging me down
Gonna stand my ground
And I won't back down"

=Tom Petty and Jeff Lynne

07/02/2008 10:42 AM  Top
bejeweled
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It's probably even more difficult for you because from the sounds of him you are trying to manage your illness with no support from him at all. That is too bad. If you ever decide that you want to leave, you can do it. Never let money stand in the way of your happiness. I have lost every single thing I owned four times and had to start over. What that taught me is that one, it takes 3 weeks to accumulate 25 years worth of shit and two, I can survive just fine with very little.
You have delighted us long enough.
- Jane Austen

Do or do not. There is no try. -YODA

"Someone call the doctor, got a case of love bipolar. Stuck on a roller coster and can't get off this ride."
-Kate Perry Hot & Cold.

07/02/2008 11:49 AM  Top
zinnia
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hi, armymom-bejeweled is right. you're surviving with no help from him (other than perhaps financial) right now. i was married to a verbally abusive man for 10 years. i swear that every time he opened his mouth it made me feel worse, even if i was having an ok day. when i finally divorced him 3 years ago, i gave up everything. all i wanted was my kids. it hasn't been easy starting over, but it's better than putting up with his shit.

as far as throwing the milk-you go girl!! he needed something to sober him up and if milk is what you had in your hand, so be it. he's lucky you didn't throw it glass and all...lol. you are a really great person, jeanne, and i hate to hear about you suffering without support from the person who's supposed to be your best friend. don't be embarassed to talk to us about this. we care and we are your friends and we do support you.

with peace and love.

z.

Well behaved women rarely make history.

Thou canst not disturb a flower without the troubling of a star...from "Troubling a Star", by Madelaine L'Engle...we all affect one another by our words and actions...it is our choice whether to do so purposefully and positively, or carelessly and hurtfully...may we all bring to one another the peace that we seek...

"if you want others to be happy, practice compassion. if you want to be happy, practice compassion" the Dahli Laama
Peace-
Zinnia

07/02/2008 12:02 PM  Top
armymom8486
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thanks you guys so much. I soooooooooo need your support right now. You guys are the TOPS on my list. Jeanne
"These are the days of our lives" LOL

07/02/2008 01:41 PM  Top
momof2rugrats
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armymom - definitely don't be so hard on yourself!That sounds like a lot to handle!I no that I have never been in the position but I know that there is help out there for women that need to get away from abusive situations. No matter emotionally/physically. I've helped friends out & done research for them & learned things along the way. Hang in there!
Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride.
-Katy Perry

07/02/2008 01:58 PM  Top
rkc1964
rkc1964Posts: 252
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Thats right girl you go. I once threw bottles at my husband just for looking at me wrong- it just came out of no where.

07/02/2008 03:29 PM  Top
norma
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I was serving my ex-husband dinner once. I had the salad in a zip lock bag on the table instead of a proper serving dish. We had an old friend over for dinner and she could have cared less. She is a Dominican nun. To make a long story short I emptied the bag of salad into his lap....he was an emotionally abusive pretentious ass. that is why he is my ex...and he used to drink too...

sorry you are going through this tough time, Jeanne

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07/02/2008 04:17 PM  Top
bejeweled
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Well, I went out with a guy in my 20s that was a loser with a capital L.

If he made it until noon without being drunk that was a banner day. I had invited him over for dinner at 5pm. I made rigatoni, set the table, had everything all nice and pretty. When he arrived at 3am, I was rather preturbed. As he came thru the door, I threw the rigatoni first - that missed. Then, I threw the garlic bread and gallon of milk - this was across the livingroom mind you...Then I grabbed a can of diet pepsi - and all those years of softball practice paid off. I cracked him right in the mouth. As drunk as he was he felt it. Smile I am still proud of myself. And glad I dumped his dumb drunk ass.

You have delighted us long enough.
- Jane Austen

Do or do not. There is no try. -YODA

"Someone call the doctor, got a case of love bipolar. Stuck on a roller coster and can't get off this ride."
-Kate Perry Hot & Cold.

07/02/2008 04:39 PM  Top
armymom8486
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bejeweled you crack me up! I don't know why I keep atrackting guys that are alkis. I know the past couple of days he has been feeling the shame. I guess his family has said some things to him also. Who knows, I know I can't stop him. We have been married for 10 years now and with each other for 11. I don't know I think I am just rambling now. I know what I should do, but it is a lot easier said than done. Jeanne
"These are the days of our lives" LOL
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