Things I Wish I Could Change!

It's the truth but for me impossible. I am not the most tactful person, and more often than not, I think back over the things I have said and find a dozen ways I could have said it differently. So, being too blunt would be something I would change in me.

Another biggy for me is being resentful and holding a grudge!!! Guys, I remember things, even stupid little things, that happened 20-30 years ago, that I still can't let go.(actually some 50 yrs ago) I can let it drift to the back of my mind, but I never really forgive. I think it's my way of never ever letting, "it", happen again. Now don't start throwing Bible phrases at me....("To err is human to forgive Divine".) My grudges are pretty well founded but I know some are just plain silly. So, to stop holding a grudge too long would also be something I would like to change. Although I have numerous faults, lol, the other big one would be to be able to take criticism well. Now if it's constructive and the reasons are explained to me, I can hang.... but if it's criticism just for the hell of it....watch out!!! Guess I could handle that more calmly!!! OK somebody else now...what would ya change???

I wish I were better at expressing myself. My parents wouldn't let me use angry words when I was little so I have learned to run everything I say through a diplomacy filter. The result usually has me looking aloof and condecending. I really hate this about myself. Others may wish they were less blunt. I wish I were more so.

I also wish I were better at letting things go. I'm good at forgiving, but the hurt takes way too long to go away. I sometimes think about a hurtful thing that someone has done, and I still feel just as hurt as the day it happened.

Another thing I wish I could change are some of the decisions I have made. I have made some really bad ones!

Oh, I wish I could lose 20 pounds and give up smoking. So far, I haven't manged to give up either one. LOL

1. dieting....

2. bras....

3. dresses....

4. cute but uncomfortable shoes....

5. ordering a salad when I want really greasy fried chicken....

6. trying to fix the world

Those are changes I will love forever!! lololol

People say that I "think I'm better then everyone else." LOL I must actually come off that way when I talk to people but I seriously don't see it. And if it were just a couple of people I could blow it off - but it has been probably six or so - there is a problem there. lol. I'd change whatever I do that makes people think that.

I would also be more responsible with money. Save more. My g/f and I make a lot, but we do whatever we want. lol. Now that we own this house we should probably start saving.

Great thread gloria!

i would change how insecure i am. i would make myself more self confident. i would make myself more like you, gloria, or kimmie. you guys tell it like you feel it and i can do that only to a point. there's part of me that's just locked and that makes me sad. i would change some mistakes i've made as a mother. i'd change some really shitty decisions i've made.

then again, i'm really happy where i am now. the first one stays but maybe i had to make all my mistakes and bad decisions to get here. who knows? i do know they still sucked when i was screwing up my life and my kids' lives.

the last thing i'd change is that i'd make this forum LIVE. i'd have you all over for coffee and we'd segue into lunch and barbque. i'd talk with every single one of you and we'd have the biggest party. we could go back to online, but i'd make it real for at least a day so we could all hug one another and connect and look into one another's eyes-the people that have been there for me and allowed me to be more myself than i ever have in my life.

god, i'm so fricking sentimental today.

Something about myself I would change is my harsh judgment of myself when I make a mistake. It just makes me so mad at me. And I hate being mad at myself....