JMS
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I was first diagnosed with bp 14 years ago when I was 17. When I turned 18 I quit taking my meds (Zoloft, lithium, buspar) mostly due to money/insurance issues. I didn't really believe that I was bipolar. I thought the docs just misinterpreted me because of arguments I had with my family when they came to visit me in the hospital, and just the normal teenage stuff. I never really felt any extreme highs like I have heard about. I was pretty much just normal, nervous, or sad. I had been off meds for about 13 years, during which time I have had 2 children and an on and off relationship with my boyfriend. I have always had problems since then but just recently decided to check into getting therapy and getting back on meds. I went to a crisis center for a week's worth of therapy and was referred to longer term councelling. While there, a doctor prescribed me depakene and restoril as well as multi-vitamins and fish oil. I took the depakene for 2 days but it was really making me sick to my stomach, so I quit taking it. I have an appointment tomorrow and will see about maybe trying a different med. It's really scary going through this after so many years of trying to deal with things on my own. I realize now that I really do have a problem. I don't want my children to have to see me like this, and I wasn't getting any better. Hopefully I am on the right track now. It is just so hard when I can't really explain how I feel and I don't feel like I can really talk to my friends and family. It is really nice to know that people here might actually get it. Post edited by: JMS, at: 04/28/2008 21:34 |
