Bipolar Support Group

Hi my name is Gary 45 and have BP and I have know for about 10 years and have be on and off meds for that long.I have a 8 year old daughter that is the best thing that ever happened to me.I love her so much we get along so well she is a gift she is so good and smart and looks up to me like no one ever has and has turned me into such a good person.I only get to see her every other weekend but we talk almost every night.I am not one to complian or tell people how bad my live is but if I dont do something fast I will loss evrthing I have ever work for.I am not working have no insure for meds lost my Homebuilding business and I am about to lose my house.I live in the Poconos in PA where there are not alot of jobs and really havent work for someone for 4-5 years and I am haveing a realy hard time trying to coup.I live alone and have a hand full of friends.I am a 45 year old men how could perly read and cant spell.It seems like I am hope less and I am looking for some where to turn I did see this comeing and me and my friend Billy invested so money in a new buss. about 6 muthes ago in a web site but it has take 3 times aslong as we thought to get the site done.Its a video realetate web site (youtube for houses} but its been so long we have lost intrest and dont know if it will even work.I am so lazy know and confused and afraied.I am sorry about my spelling and I am just dont know where to turn anymore.Thank you for reading this and if anyone thinks they could help please email back Thanks Gary

Dear Gary,

Glad you joined the site...you are not alone. Don't worry about the spelling!!!!

Your daughter sounds like a sweetheart...know you love her. Taking care of yourself is important to her as well as for you.

I am so sorry you lost your business. Are you seeing a doctor? And are you on meds now??

Thank you Norma for your nice words I am see a doctor but I dont have any meds left I srewed up with my state insuren and they droped me becuse last year I had some money and both a stock and they said I did tell them about and they made me out to be some crimal that I am not I have tryrd to do everthing right but I am so imbarest and frustrted and afiaded I did something wrong I just gave up.

Don't be embarresed...just have to try and get some meds. If you can't get them through state insurance can your doctor give some samples until you can get the money together to buy meds??

As for the jobs, I know building is off in a lot of parts of the country...I have a lumber company here in Southeast Texas and last quarter was the lowest we have been in years...maybe you can find some temp work...although, I know that can be a problem. If you have tools sometimes home repair can provide income...

Gary, welcome to the group.

Never give up! Get up and keep moving forward only if it is inch by inch. You will eventually work up to day by day and on from there.

Your daughter needs you and deserves to have the best dad you can be. I am sure that wife also needs you greatly. Sounds like great reasons to keep going to me!

Hang in there, there is a woman by the name of Carmen that will probably be around in a bit that has some great insight into the workings of our healthcare system.

As far as spelling... Somewhere here on the fourm they have started a class action lawsuit against our schools. Cause they have failed to do what they were supposed to. LOL

We are here for you, you are not alone.

GOD BLESS

RED

Thank you so much it raelly means lot that there are people that understand us.I just need alittle I mean a few kind words go along way.The only reason I am still on this earth is because of my Daughter.She neededs me and I went to Catlic Schools my whole life and they just pushed me along and said I was fine but i am fine and do except my disabletes.Thank You agine Gary

Hi Gary,

Welcome. I am glad you have found us. I was an honors english student, and still have a hard time remembering how to spell certain words...LOL

The meds don't help with this either.

There are ways to get meds if you can aford them. Look up free meds online. There are few different places to help you . You can also go to your local mental health department. You can't just give up. I have 4 kids, and had to make a decision about whether, I wanted to be there for them, or risk my life being untreated, and nuts the rest of my life. I destroyed a lot of stuff in my life, too. That's in the past. I can get help, now, and try to have a good life from here.

I am glad you reached out. There is a lot of support here.

Hi Norma Thanks for your help I worked on my Resume all weekend emailed to a couple of places and stopped feeling sorry for my self and prayed and I got 2 emails and a phone call for a great job I may have to move back to Connecticut but thats OK.I dont have a job yet but I do have faith and thats alot more then I had last week.I think I will stick around here alittle I just mit learn something.PS when I am not freaking out I spell alot better Gary

Post edited by: gcol, at: 04/01/2008 08:47

Life is like that, one minute it looks bad and the next thing you know it...things are better...I am so glad for you...please keep us updated on things...were are here for you...hug, norma