I'm in one of those phases where it doesn't matter how long I've been diagnosed or how long I've been on medication, I am just really angry that I'm here at all. I'm so scared to look for a new job as the possibility that stress will make me behave badly and that my "cover" will be blown is too much. Ironically, I work with people with mental illnesses every day - depression to schizophrenia and the fav bipolar. So difficult sometimes. As for the new pdoc I live in an area where there are few options.... I've thought of foregoing the pdoc "checkin" for the next year as I have enough rx for that period. I'm so tired of this..... I'm just tired. You know it's gonna get you, somewhwere along the line... ~B. Joel |
"I've been a grateful member here for over 4 yrs this place has changed my life of course for the better, coming to the groups has enabled me to no longer feel so alone. As a group leader for the Bipolar Support group I can relate to others and am expressing my experience strength and hope and this is very rewarding, I've also made many supportive friends here whom I talk to some daily. I used to have a lot of 'lows' since becoming member here at MdJunction I no longer have these lows." (Dit)
