Bipolar Support Group

Not sure if any of you remember me.

About a year and a half ago I came back to the group after a couple of years of ups and downs. I talked about my dogs a lot. Well February 7, 2011 my love passed away. He absolutely was the love of my life. After he passed away I went crazy. I stopped taking my meds and was very very depressed. I would wake up in the middle of the night and just cry for hours. I couldn't even talk about it because I would just burst out in tears. I ended up cheating on my boyfriend of three years. We split up and I moved in with this new guy... and his parents. Smart I know!

Come to find out this new guy smokes meth. I actually went against everything I ever believed in and tried meth. Thank God I did not get addicted I hated it. Long story short I got pregnant. This guy treated me horribly and I did not want my baby to exposed to meth or the horrible things this guy would put me through.

So I get back on my meds and my ex decided he was willing to forgive and try to work through everything. Even with the fact that I was pregnant.

My pregnancy was miserable. I could not believe I was pregnant by a meth addict. I was seriously considering adoption. The father was actually in jail when his son was born. My boyfriend was with me through the whole thing and this shows me how much he truly cares and wants to help me. I even named my son after him and we are engaged to be married but have not set a date yet. Provided I stay on my meds.

I am really wanting to keep my life on track and hopefully not go off my meds anymore. I think the main problem is I don't see a psych any more because my last one told me I was pretty and made me feel very uncomfortable because of some things that happened in my past.

I hope to be a permanent member here from now on!

Wow, you are really lucky to have such a great guy. I'm sorry that you went off your medications and this all happened to you. It's just something that some people end up doing. As long as you learned from it, it's all good. It's in the past. That guy seems awful. How terrible to find out he was a meth addict. Dangerous too. I think it's wonderful that your ex has given you another chance even though you are having another man's baby. That shows how much he loves you. I am happy for you. Congratulations on your engagement! I'm very happy for you! Welcome back to the group!!

Welcome back! Congrats on your son and your engagement. What a wonderfully supportive man you have found! I hope you will stay on your meds and visit us frequently.

Try not to be hard on yourself for your mistakes, just learn from them and try not to repeat them.

I agree. Not many are lucky enough to find someone who supports you. I think that is the greatest asset to bp. He reminds me to take my meds and he understands exactly why I go off the deep end sometimes and he helps instead of pushing me over. He is the only one in my life who understands exactly what being bp mean and do to me. Thanks for the welcomes. I am set on being a permanent memeber.