Well I have been off of my meds for almost a month now and I am starting to "backslide". I was good for a bit but things are starting to close in on me now. The meds I was taking was not helping and the doctor did not seem to do anything about it so I told him that I was not going to take any meds that were not doing anything for me. I have not kept my appointments, been calling and canceling them and coming up with some weird and wonderful as to why I cannot make it. I have been an awful person that has become such a good liar here lately but the lies have all caught up with me. While apologizing to my family, I was told there was no such thing as bi-polar and I need to quit using that as an "excuse". Also I have been diagnosed as ADD.

I have three boys that depend on me and I am not setting a good example for them and my mom thinks that I should not have custody of them. I am otherwise a good mother, cooking, spending quality time with the kids, things that moms should do.

Sorry to unload on everyone, just had to get things off of my chest!!

Take Care