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Bipolar Forums › Introductions & Personal Stories › Well i guess its time to get help
04/14/2010 01:10 PM
Sassyisshe
 
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Hello,

My names Tabatha. I'm 24. I was Diagnosed with Bipolar disorder when i was 14. I have been struggling with it for 10 years. Through the years i've been put on many different medication to control it and my manic depressent episodes. I have in the recent months come of all medication with out being told to do so. I thought that i could control it. In the process i frabricated a story that in the end left me with both family and friends that dont trust me. Rightfuly so. There have been some tramatic events in my life more then i would care to sit here and write about. For some reason i picked up lying as a coping skill. I thought that lying would let me controll situations...Boy was i wrong. Eventually things blow up in your face and you're left with no where to go.. all because of you're own doing. I also have Borederline personality disorder(most BP's do) and several anxiety issues. I'm currently seeking help to get my life back under control. Being in a support group is the first step to a better tomorrow.
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04/14/2010 01:31 PM  Top
QuietDesperation
QuietDesperation
 
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Hi Tabatha Welcome to the group!! there are lots of good, friendly and helpful people here to help you on your journey. Feel free to pm me anytime if you want to chat. Hope you make lots of friends here!

QD

“Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them.”
Henry David Thoreau

Previous discussions I participated in:
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I really need help

04/14/2010 01:54 PM  Top
YorkieLove
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Welcome Tabatha. I can only imagine how much trouble lying can cause you. Have you tried counseling to help you deal with that?

Also, have you thought of going back on your meds? Meds are critical for someone with bipolar. They are for me anyway.

You have come to a great place for friendship and support. Please keep posting. I look forward to getting to know you better.

Lisa

My advice is purely personal. I am not a Doctor and there is NO substitute for getting proper medical diagnosis and advice.

Bipolar II, Depressed Severe

Lamictal 400 mg
Seroquel 150 mg
Effexor 150 mg
Inderal 10 mg
Ambien 5 mg
Lithium 1200 mg

04/14/2010 02:18 PM  Top
Sassyisshe
 
Posts: 15
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I'm in the process of getting in to see someone about getting back on meds. Its proving difficult given my current situation. I really really screwed things up. though i know it can be fixed given the right treatment and time. Its not the end of the world but it sure feels like it. Im currently seeking help with the lying issue and have made plans to seek therapy.

04/14/2010 02:27 PM  Top
Dit
Dit
 
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Hi Tabetha and welcome. Sounds like you are doing all the right things for you to get the help you need to become well. Feel free to post wherever you like, looking forward to seeing more of you.
Be Still and Know That I Am - Scripture
12-Step Slogans - One Day/Moment at a Time/Just for Today/Let Go & Let God/But By the Grace of God
Live and Let Live/Easy Does It/This Too Shall Pass

"Don't be afraid to cry. It will free your mind of sorrowful thoughts." - Hopi tribe

Bipolar I

Lithium 300 mgs, Lamotrigine 200 mgs, Klonopon (Clonazepam) .05mg more if needed, Clomipramine (Anafranil) 25 mgs, Abilify 5 mgs, Seroquel 25 mgs

Please note that I am not a psychiatrist or psychologist. My opinions are personal only. This site is not intended to be a substitution for professional care, nor is anyone here qualified to make diagnoses.

04/14/2010 05:02 PM  Top
Volante
Volante
 
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Could you tell us what traumatic events have happened since you decided to go unmedicated? I think we may be able to give good advice is you give us more details.
Bipolar I with psychotic features.

Lamictal 300mg
Latuda 160mg
Ativan 2mg as needed
Prazosin 4mg (Nightmares)
Percocet 5mg x 5 a day (Severe Headaches)
Oxycontin 20mg Twice a day (Severe Headaches)

04/14/2010 05:11 PM  Top
Sassyisshe
 
Posts: 15
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I was a victim of both mental and physical abuse .... I have a ton of medical issues . When I was 10 I got spinal bacterial minigitist... I suffered brain damage from it as well as developing epilepsy. Part of the issue was that I would get really manic and start cleaning because I'm also OCD. I would then crash and have a seizure. There's a lot more but there's like the tip of the ice burg.

04/14/2010 05:26 PM  Top
YorkieLove
YorkieLove
 
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I am sorry for your abuse. You will find that many of us here have been abused. There are also support groups on MDJ for child abuse and sexual abuse victims.
Lisa

My advice is purely personal. I am not a Doctor and there is NO substitute for getting proper medical diagnosis and advice.

Bipolar II, Depressed Severe

Lamictal 400 mg
Seroquel 150 mg
Effexor 150 mg
Inderal 10 mg
Ambien 5 mg
Lithium 1200 mg

04/14/2010 05:28 PM  Top
erin33
Posts: 14
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I know about the lying. I picked that up somewhere too. I don't know why I lied, I was just afraid of telling the truth. I think when we have physical abuse and we get blamed for things, as a way of getting away from the abuse, we lie. It becomes a coping skill for us but at some point it stops working. I figured out that life is much easier and I feel better about myself when I tell the truth so I haven't told a lie in years.

I read in a book today that because of the BP we get dx'd with borderline, but it isn't always a correct dx because the symptoms of Borderline mimic the symptoms of BP. Just a thought.

04/14/2010 06:01 PM  Top
Sassyisshe
 
Posts: 15
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Yes from what I've read a lot of people come from abuse of some sort. I also know I'm not the only one out there. Believe me I don't want lie and I'm working from yesterday on to free myself of it. I really messed some things up in my family. All I can do now is pick up my peices accept what I've done and move on. It's going to be hard I'm sure. No one can trust me and it's understandable. Im hoping that this is my lowest low and that I can go no where but up from here. They did call the cops last night and tried to get admitted to the hospital however I was not suicidal at the point. So I'm seeking out pacient help.
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