Bipolar Support Group

Welcome to the group. You will find lots of support here, and realize there is hope.

Hi. I'm not sure when I became bipolar. I had been abused from when I was very little to until I left my husband a few years back. Meaning all the different kinds of abuse. My marriage was based on rape and when we got married he would rape me many times. My husband taught three out of the four of my kids to be abusive to me also. Things have finally changed with my relationships with my adult children now. I've always been depressed to the point of wanting to killing myself, but not actually doing it. I thought this was very normal for the life i was in. Who wouldn't be depressed? After many years I finally felt that I knew what God wanted me to do with my marriage so I finally had it blessed. After we got it blessed, my husband approached me and told me that now you have to do everything that I tell you. I scoffed him off, but that night when I went to bed, he raped me in the most horrible way. Soon after I started seeing things that were not there and having derealization panic attacks. At work, I soon got into trouble for making bad decisions, and my family doctor sent me to the psych hospital where I was diagnosed Bipolar with rapid cycling, laughing one minute and crying the next. I ended up in the "special hall" until I was put on some fast working meds. I was out in a week. By that time I knew I had to get away from my husband so I did leave him shortly after that. I am now on $1000 of meds a month and on disability. It took awhile for my friends and family to get used to the fact that I am bipolar, though I have a feeling that some of them still do not believe it and feel that I should not be on disability. The mental health agency that I go to believes that if I should go to work, it should only be 8 hours per week. I feel many times that I'm am being pulled into two different directions. I don't even know how some people with bipolar can work and still receive their benefits meaning their medications unless they can work full time with insurance. I feel so judged by some members of my family and others that it hurts... I never asked to become bipolar. I never asked for any of this...

Post edited by: littleflower, at: 07/28/2012 07:14 PM

John that was good advice.

Welcome to the Bipolar Support Group LittleFlower

I am so very sorry for what you went through.

I hope and pray you feel better with each passing day.

You will meet a lot of people with similar experiences with mood.

I am glad you found this group.

Thank you for the compassion, support and prayers. I really do appreciate it. Thank you!

Has anyone had this experience where you almost feel shunned by others because they think your wrong for being on disability?

Hi! Welcome to the group

Where to start? I'm married to a good but extremely jealous husband. I had a bubbling personality and was popular with both men and women at work. He wanted to know if I had sex with any of the guys and I like a fool told him just two. I thought that the seventies was an enlighten time where women could have sex just like the men and not be called a bad name. I was 26 when we met yet my husband expected me to be under a rock. My husband didn't like my friendships with some of the guys and made it clear he wanted me to cut all ties to them. Kinda hard to do when working with them. I did because I wanted to keep peace but I also was resentful that he didn't trust me. He kept bringing up those two and questioned me all the time. I told him to stop badgering me about it. It's got so bad that I got extremely depressed and lo and behold I had an affair with a guy at work. This was in the eighties and I felt so guilty I told my husband. As is expected my life was utter hell but we got through it. In counseling, the doc thought I could have bipolar but both my husband and I thought no way.

Now update to 2000, I was spending money right and left. I was always very angry and hateful towards my husband. I ended up having an online affair. This time my husband caught me. As expected my life was hell. He forgave me again but kept bringing up old affairs and boyfriends I've had before I met him again. This time he wanted me to go counseling but not him. He didn't like the fact that each counselor(we went to three)told him that he played a big part in that he could never let up on all my mistakes. Every time we watch a move where infidelity was the story, he would comment out loud about how that cheater should be dropped kick out the door or empathized with the injured spouse. I asked him to please stop but he kept on. I decided to seek counseling in 2005 when one night I wanted to drive my car into a tree going 70. It was her who told me I got Bipolar, graves disease and ADD. Knowing my history, she said that the extreme stress I was under could have brought out the worst of it. Well, I've taken care of them all but it took a long time to stabilized. I sometimes missed my manic stage where I was confident, bubbling old self and felt I can do anything but I would never stop taking Meds. Now there are signs that my husband is having affair and am wondering do I have the right to be angry even with my past history? In spite it all, I still love him. Been married to him for 33 years and our three children are all grown. Thanks MDjunction for allowing me to tell my story for the first time in the written word.

Hi, I am a mom of a 22 year old son who has bipolar since the age of 18 and adhd since the age of 4 and a half. It has been one long road for me. The adhd was simple I could say, but when he was diagnosed with Bipolar my life has changed and it is hard to live with him. There are days that I just do not want to be around him, he has disrupted our family, my two daughters can't even stand being around him. I have to lock my bedroom door for he has stolen plenty from me. He does see a therapist and psychiarist, takes his meds. He is very ignorant in a sense where he does not care about anything in our home. He antagonizes my animals and I am just getting tired of it. You ask him why he does stuff and his answer is I don't know with a smile on his face. I am so stressed out with him!! I love him for he is my son, but hate him other wise. I have recently been put on blood pressure medicine on count of him. I am on wits end. I was so glad to find this web site and forum to be able to talk to other people.