hello

I am not diagnosed, but my wife is, so I know how it's like.

Sometimes I ask her WHY she acts like that. She says, of course, that it's the disease. But once she realizes she shouldn't do it, and it's the disease (she realizes even before, not thinking back at what happened), I don't understand what prevents her from NOT acting that way, when she knows it's wrong all along. She doesn't have a valid explanation. Maybe you would...

You need to understand she wants nothing more than to be able to do right, but her brain won't allow her too. I know myself I just hate it! I mean I really really hate. Thats why we have a high rate of suicide, this disease is horrible. But we can learn to live with it, and make the best of it. I hope this helps in some small way. I know it is difficult for you, but please remember, she is suffering, she feels bad for her actions and does not want to dissappoint you, but the devil inside her brain has taken away her abilty toact the way you feel she should. Have some sympathy she is in a great struggle

I've seen some of Jim's posts, and, I hope I'm not wrong, he found a way to "go around" the crisis, let it go, wait until it passes and it's all gone.

I guess my wife is tired of explaining, or just doesn't have the words, but she never put it like this, like you described what's going on. I guess she is, indeed, suffering more than I am. And I'm truly sorry for that. I'll stand by her all the way, and she knows that, I hope that helps her.

Thank you, Kathy.