Alot of Questions and need help please!

I have been taking medicine for about a year. First,I saw a dr. who I still see.I was something I forget it's name and then he put me on Rispadal and so forth. Then he tried me on Lithium which caused a thyroid issue and was taken off of it. Then Lacimental. (I am dislexic so pls forget the spelling) which I have been on for like 6mo. and I dont notice anything difference. I feel actually worse. At first it worked great but now almost nothing. I am trying to blame other things but I know whats wrong it's the medicine isnt working anymore. Anyone else have this experience? I mean my mind is actually racing faster, thoughts won't stop, I rapid cycle quickly anyways and now it's worse, I am extremely anxious and I am a good actress and my fiencee is the only that sees this, but he hasnt noticed it bc I keep blaming the lower pelvic pain that I have for over 4yrs. now wo a cause or wo any help but vividin that I hate taking and hardly do. I hate pills that is why I got on Lacimental's generic that is chewable I am hoping that will help me take them.

Now I have another problem and I am wondering if anyone else has this problem and if so how did they fix it.I have been trying to finish my degree and I just get bored and switch degrees and get close on another one before I switch again.

Then when I get a job I get hit on all the time I know I flirt but not like a tease or anything I am just nice and men think something else.That is who I am, actually I like the attention and then it gets so bad bc I have the boss in my dept, another dept and other ppl hitting on me and let me get away with everything and not work and get a raise but then the mess I created gets so bad I have to leave bc the guys wont leave me alone after I have them do my biding, and I get bored and I am afraid that anything I do well be met with "oh, she's bipolar" and I wont be believed.

Hell my soon-to-be mother in law thinks I am going to kill her son one day which hurts and then I get over that.Then the medicine wares off or I am too extreme I dont I get worse some how, and I againg get so angry at her that it amazes me and I actually like her when the medicine in fact I think of her a freind.Anyone who may have said anything to me at anytime I flip out remebering something from 1998 that I was over. Anyone else has this problem? Then I try to find something destructive to do(like now) but before I do I try to reach out, like this.(My therepist taught me that) I am not thinking of killing myself or someone else dont get me wrong. I just cant get my mind to shut up and I need help.

Lamictal? I'm on that with Lithium too and have had better results than nothing (ha) and Lithium alone. I'm attaching a link of different meds used to treat BP and depression. It's handy.

I'm a psych student (should start grad school in three months but I'm flaky and bipolar) and I heard one of my professors mention that BPD is a degenerative disease - it gets worse if not treated. Anyone out there who has input on this feel free to chime in. I will say that based on my research BPD presents (usually) in late teens and early 20s.

For me, I've gotten worse with age. Sometimes my coping skills are fantastic and then I 'swing' and they go out the window. My mind races more now - but I was on antidepressants for 8 yrs and that couldn't have been good. I used to prick my fingertips when I was 14. Each one. Over and over again - and did this when the thoughts and frustrations were too much. I'm ashamed to say that now I go to town with a safety pin on my legs. I have a scar from two months ago from my ankle to my knee. Like road rash. Last one I did just before I was admitted into the hospital. So I guess now I'm a 'cutter'...but I've seen some serious cutters before and I'm not like that. It's just like my insides are lava - and the pain inside is unbearable - to hurt on the outside actually is helpful. Unsafe, dangerous and not recommended. I know where you are. I'm glad you're here.

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I don't take the lithium, so not sure how it works, or the klonopin, nor a sleep medication, although some nights I sure could use something, reading generally will put me to sleep.. and staying away from the caffeine late in the afternoon..

As for the love life? lol, what is that? Hubby and I have had sex maybe once in the past year, between his medication and mine, the mood just isn't there, but the one good thing, is we like each others company so it isn't that big of a deal..

Welcome. I can relate to your story so much. I have been bipolar since, I was 10yrs old, and was misdiagnosed a couple of times, and diagnosed bipolar 5 yrs ago, but, quit taking my meds. Yes, for me, my illness got way worse. I used to be able to hold a job, and it got so bad, I am now disabled.I have been on meds for a year, too. It has really helped me alot.

I used to play games with men, too.

I have tried several meds, and the only one that works the best so far is Lithium. I am on Lamictal, too. It helps with the depression, but, It wasn't enough. I have had to have my meds increased a couple of times.

I can't take antidepressants. They make me cycle worse.

Anyway, nice to have you here, Feel free to jump right in, and post all you want.

Clevergirl, Therapy has really made a difference in my life. All the memories, that trigger my moods, I have been able to work through in therapy. With out meds, I had a hard time letting go of anything. I think, I don't process things normally.