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carmen33 wrote: Have you done any research on the diagnosis that you have? you might research them and see which one or ones more closely fit his symptoms, that is how I got diagnosed with the bipolar was from doing my own research starting with the depression side of it. Carmen My husband always wears a different face. I cannot keep up with his changes. He told me once he is a chameleon and that is a very good description of him. I don't exactly know what the change point is only that he moves into one room from another of his disorders quite rapidly and almost what seems to be unprovoked. To try to keep up with all of it and be versed on all of it, will probably take me a life time if we have that much time together. Some of the features his personality displays are paranoia, anxiety, a preoccupation with safety, overly critical of everything-very negative in general, obsessive with hobbies and collections, a preoccupation with sex, a sudden urge to contact old friends, needs to just get away for hours at a time, social needs where he goes out with friends and can't seem to get enough of social interaction, he enjoys giving things to people and will even buy gifts for people, impulsive spending, indulging in expensive foods and drinks, indulging in food in general, then there are the highs and lows, emotional outbursts, seems very disconnected at times, will lay on the couch and sleep instead of joining his family in an activity or outing, threats of suicide and divorce and now his threat is to leave the country. There may be more it's hard to think of all of them. It's overwhelming in general to say the least. And everything is my fault according to him. He would like to find a way to destroy my self confidence and control me but hasn't found a way to do it yet and that really bothers him-so he seems to have a need to be powerful and control a person to feel whole himself. Weird. From me he expects unconditional love. When he curses me and tells me I'm worthless his desire from me is sympathy. He says he wants me my reply to be to wrap my arms around him and tell him everything will be okay. Then after sick lectures that he gives me about my worthlessness he wants to cry have me turn to him in mercy and have sex with him. Really sick stuff. Oh and I cannot say anything negative about him or say anything critical at all about him or he totally loses it and either blows up or storms out of the house. He has thrown furniture before, broken things or damaged things. Thrown a beer bottle acrossed the room and it hit a glass frame of a picture hanging on the wall. Punched a hole through a wall once. He has made comments that he should hit me several times and I made it clear if he did I was calling the police and I have looked him in the eye and told him I am not afraid of him but he only waited and did it back to me later and I responded with, "Good, I'm glad you're not a person should never have to fear their spouse." But I don't think it registered to him. Everything seems like a game to him or a challenge. It's who will have control. Funny I think we are each responsible to control ourselves. Wonder where I ever got that idea? Post edited by: damselndistress, at: 10/10/2007 11:36 Post edited by: damselndistress, at: 10/10/2007 11:40 Post edited by: damselndistress, at: 10/10/2007 11:47 |
