husband high, dreading going home

Post edited by: missced, at: 04/22/2008 11:28

You are right, you can't deal with this anymore. You need a therapist and support to make life better for yourself...you are not alone we are here...

Welcome. I am glad you have found us. I am sorry you are having to deal with this. He seems like he is manic, and irrational. Is there anywhere you can stay? With family or friends?

You don't have to deal with him while he is sick. If nothing you have done has worked, than it's time to do something different. Get some space, get some support, and help for you, and let him make his own decisions about his illness. If you stay there and let him keep acting this way toward you, you will just enable him to continue. You can't stop him, and if you keep standing in front of the train you will get hit.

Get out of the way, and take care of you.

Keep coming here, we are here for you.

I'm sorry you've come to this point in your relationship.

I drug my kids with me, while doing this, for the last 11 yrs.

Before that, I went on adventures with my mania in full swing, and going from place to place making friends, and then destroying them , and leaving to do it again with other situations. At this point, I still thought it was fun.

I did all this until the bottom finally fell out, and my bridges were all burned, and I finally saw what, I was doing to the people around me. I had to burn out every reservation, I had. I had to burn through every reason I had for my behavior. I had already lost everything once. I was at the point of having to make a decision. Did, I want to do this again, and eventually die from self medicating,or by my own illness, or get help?

No one could make that decision for me. That is why I see how this illness can be so destructive if not treated. I would not wish this illness on anyone, and would not purpously put anyone through this with me. My fiance chose to go through this with me, but, he is very strong, and determined. Not everyone can take this illness. He didn't take my s*%t, either.

This is why, we suggest, that if you choose to live with a person with bipolar, that you take care of yourself, and educate yourself.

And don't try to stand in the way or chase a person with bipolar, if they don't want help. Also don't make bipolar an excuse to stay in an abusive situation. It's like volentarily walking into a land mine.

Set boundaries, respect yourself, and stop trying to make them get help, or take their meds. When, I was deep in my illness, if, I was going to jump off of a bridge with a superman cape on, no one could have stopped me. At that point the police should be called.You don't have to jump with me. The powerlessness hurts, but eventually you have to let go.

I am lucky, I am alive....LOL