irrational fear (s)

I know I thought about the insecticide poisoning me too...what a decision the spiders or the poison...LOL and we have red ants in the yard and I hate to put poison on them because it might kill the birds...ala Rachel Carson in Silent Spring

Come to think of it, I also can't watch a scary movie without socks on, can't hang my barefeet over the edge of my bed, and I use to not even be able to get in or out of bed without looking like a pole vaulter, because of my fear of something under the bed. So my beautiful husband took the bed off of the frame...

Gah...I really do love him.

(Vincent Price), with a friend. OH my God it was soooooooooo scary (I had never seen a big screen like that before, so it was terrifying to me. Well during one of the scariest scenes, the 2 boys setting behind us (we did not know them) reached under our seats and grabbed our ankels!!!! I have never screamed or shaken so bad in my life!!! We both cried so hard we had to leave. I will never forget it............hey could this be another reason for my PTSD??????????? (makes me wonder)

i so hate spiders, worst thing is where i live i have these wolf spiders that come in my room, so far ive caught 15 or so in a jar, i save them in case i ever get bit i can show the doctor. they say there poisonous but so far the 3 or so that touched my arm and face has not bitten me thank god. i think they just love my warm room.. i wish they would leave me alone and enjoy there 500 acres of land. why do they have to bug me?? i even have bad dreams of them and wake up and turn lights on at 3am and nothing.. grrrrrrr it ticks me off.. i get oanic attacks to.. not show much that i fear spiders b/c when i see them im not scared really. i know i can just kill it but i dont... i just want them gone, i dont go outside hunting them, why so they hunt me

Now the bugs that do get to me, are what I call potato bugs, they look like 3 marbles stuck together with pinchers.. pre-historic looking things.