Bipolar Support Group

i have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and now that certain family members know i have been treated a little bit different i have been called crazy and i feel like i cant even get angry or be honest anymore without a smart remark oh thats the bipolar side talking so that is the reason i prefer to isolate myself.im currently on meds and now i feel less sad i still get angry at times and moody, im single and at times lonely in the love department. i have two daughters that inspire me to do good and be a better person.i am no longer in my relationship due to the fact thatmy ex wanted me to allow him to cheat and have risky sex me being me i left and started over my finances have changed i am to up and down to much to work but my faith in god has helped me through this i love my kids and my life i am here to stay but i must say i am soooooo happy to have found this site and all of you who care! thank you

Post edited by: ladyblue01, at: 08/25/2009 12:25 PM

I'm sorry your feelin down ladyblue. I can definately relate to having people treat you different after the diagnosis. My family is really confused about the illness and look at me different like I am crazy. It can get very lonely when people around you just dont understand. Try and hang in there and I hope you feel better!

Hugs to you.

Put your head up darling. People with a mental disorder are actually really blessed. I've discovered ways that this disorder really works for you. Heres an example:

When some ignorant person makes a derogatory comment you can always reply with "at least *I* have an excuse".. then look at them with your eyebrows up as if to imply that they're the ones off their rocker... this shuts them up faster then you can blink.

I like to think that we're blessed with seeing a different kind of world then others. Thats a treat in my books.

I've spent so much time feeling grouchy and angry about this that I've figured out a way to see humor in it. I still have down days but I try really hard to be positive.

Here's something else to think about: You are on a forum with a bunch of other beautiful people who share this disorder and among us you're perfectly fabulous.

sounding very repetitive - I've worked HARD for decades to not let anyone, including best friends, know my dx. I work hard to maintain my meds, therapy and stability so that no one has to know unless I want them to know. It's hard work but it's worked for me for a long time.

It's not reasonable at this time to believe that the outside world will hear bipolar and go "ah, treatable mental health disorder" ---- it's more like "ah, scream, crazy person in our midst!" Maybe someday... certainly the whole psychotherapy world has come a long way toward pulblic acceptance. You're shunned almost if you haven't undergone some sort of counseling.

H.

Post edited by: harobed, at: 08/24/2009 04:50 PM

You should come here each day if only for a short time and let everyone know how your previous day went and what you're looking forward to today. Forget the fact you have a 'label'. Man I remember when they first diagnosed me, I lived day by day under a cloud of 'bipolar'. Now the word bipolar or 'my diagnosis' doesn't even enter my mind, it's just who I am. It's tough in the beginning, but please come back to talk to people about it!

edit: harobed, I couldn't live like this. I had many friends leave me when they found out I was 'crazy', and I had very few who stayed. Of course, the ones who left weren't really friends. Now I meet people who brush me off for it and others who couldn't give a damn about it. Those are the good people, couldn't care less about the selfish others. I would never live life spending so much time and energy (mental and physical) trying to cover up such an important part of me.

Post edited by: Aha, at: 08/25/2009 04:36 AM

AHA - to analyze myself a bit:

I come from a different age - no one tells their business, especially their mental health business. Combine that with negative reactions from the few people that DO know, ie, husband, parents, children, nursing staff at my pulmonologist's office, every treating doc assuming that I'm not following treatments and that it's because I'm bp, to the 'not at work' taboo........ well, that's it.

Hard work - sometimes yes, absolutely, but I've been doing this a long, long time. Tell people I've been in the hospital due to exhaustion... ?? When I rapid cycle around people, incl work people, I laugh it off and claim some wierd expression of happiness/sadness or something - anything to deflect their questions. True, they probably talk about me behind my back - but I don't care about that. My boss does know about my PTSD dx and so any anger issues are easily attributable to that.

H.

Hello and welcome ladyblue01. This site has really helped me out a lot, i no longer feel alone.

hey people i have had a mild emotional set back .... well where should i start ????? here it goes my grandfather came on to me . i recently lost my grandmother and i thought i had him to turn to i always felt that he loved me the most he always told me that i was his favorite now i know why i wonder if i was molested by him see i dont remember my childhood i lost my mom when i was four and i have no memeory of her or alot of my childhood my doctor told me my mind blocked out a horrible experience i always felt like a sex addict i always loved older men maybe thats why ..... i always feel like no one see's me for my good qualities everyone wants a piece of me its too much sometimes

THANK YOU

Nice to see you again. Sorry no one responded to your post earlier, sometimes it takes a bit of time before someone posts. You've just expressed that your grandfather came on to you and you think that he may have sexually molested you during your childhood?

Have you spoken to your psychiatrist (pdoc) about this? If not you may need to, this sounds like its been on your mind and your pdoc should know about your thoughts too. It may be a good idea if you consider seeing a therapist (tdoc) in order to deal with this issue, not sure of anyone else that could counsel you effectively on this.

Glad you are posting, keep posting here if you want to say more, we are here for you. I wish i had more to say but i don't, take care.