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I feel like I am getting back to my peaceful self Awwwh. Feels good!!Was beginning to wonder about myself! Thankfully, someone canceled an appointment this morning. I was starting to calm down, but it just really helps to talk to my Dr. I really love her TONS. She means the world to me! I talked to her about my daughter. I just hated to, because Katie loves her so much. I just don't see the point in driving hours a way for a psychiatrist when they are 30 minutes a way. In the facility that they are in tho, I have to have the psychologist and the psychiatrist together at the same facility, no outside doctors?She said that she just wanted her to get the treatment she needs to get her bipolar under control, & to feel better & it wasnt going to hurt her feelings. So, I have an appointment scheduled for her on April 22nd to her new Dr. It makes me so nervous to have to start all over. New Doctors, new opinions....I'm taking her other records with us so?We will see! This week there has been tons of different times that I have had to stick up for myself or my family & I think I should express myself differently. Since starting therapy I have came A LONNNNG way. I have let people TRAMPLE allll over me, kick me in the face (not literally but ya no?)I have been struggling thinking it's a new anger issue, but its only when I am sticking up for me or my people, I come across as being mad or whatever?The person I confront they say 'I thought you were mad at me'. And its not that I am mad..I no Im not making since but?ANYWAY!!My doctor said that I am having the 'I am sticking up for myself and I don't care what you think' attitude? My husband took care of my awful 'friend' situation. I won't have to be dealing with her on a regular basis. He is friends with her husband. She asked about me, I hadn't been answering her calls. He said that 'we were not getting along again' UGH. He told her we were just not compatible as friends, nothing against her, I didn't hate her. We just couldn't get along together as friends?I can't believe it but, I don't feel overwhelmed with guilt about it, I really feel relieved about it. I couldnt believe a person could cause me so much anxiety & a pounding headache!!! Hugs, Amber My name is Amber, Im 30 years old..Married for almost 12 years to my wonderful husband (together for 14). We have 2 children boy/girl. I have recently been diagnosed having Bipolar II.
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