Friend Situation

She knows that I am having trouble & she says the most idiotic things. I haven't seen/spoke to her in 3 weeks. My husband had to help her husband do something on our way to dinner, so I stayed in the car. She came out to talk to me. We talked, I told her I was being unsociable, I just needed time away from people. She is the only one I need time away from when I am in my mood, she sets me on FIRE when she says the wrong things. She tells me that they are kidnapping my husband and I will probably not be seeing him for a while because he is helping them work on their house (which he owes them big favors because her husband has helped us loads on our house). But don't tell me things like that when I am having major problems. I talk to my husband and he told me that it is for one weekend?????GRRRRR. I was like?It made it sound like forever she was talking about?

That day in the driveway she asks me to meet her & another one of her friends for lunch on Weds. So, I agree. I have been feeling better. Yesterday morning, I got a phone call from my best friend telling me she went to the Dr. for her check up. I have been waiting to her from her. She has some female stuff going on. The Dr. said that he thinks it may be vulvar cancer. She was hysterical of course. I was crying so hard I was gagging. I called to cancel lunch to go be with my bf. My bf called a lil later to tell me she had been up forever because she worked the night shift and had been up for 20 hours and needed a nap. So I called back and said I would go to lunch.

I get to the restaraunt. I think we were there 10 minutes and we were already at each others throats? She said they were husband bashing today, did I have anything to add to the pile. I added mine to the pile. She didn't like what I had to say?She is so opinionated. She can say whatever the heck she wants to say without thinking if its going to hurt someones feelings. But, now that I have decided its time that I get to stick up for myself and say what I feel or think she doesn't like it and gets all pissy?Awwh poor her?She asked me if anyone told the dad of my bf about whats going on..They are not together anymore. I said some pretty choicey words about THAT guy because he was cheating on her and if I am right about some of this HPV or STD's can cause this cancer she has?You arent even suppose to get it until you are older she is only 32 years old? She didnt like what I had to say, because they liked him and no him. That is my bf's business. Her test results are not in yet anyways so?We were not agreeing on a few other things very strongly. But, when its her not agreeing with me - SHE HAS HER OWN OPINION<NOT EVERYONE HAS THE SAME OPINION. But, when I don't agree. OHNO!

My husband said that I should just shake my head and agree, NO, I'm not. You shouldn't have to do that. I am Bipolar & I canNOT shake my head and agree!!It will not go in one ear and OUT the other.

I guarantee, she will be calling me today. She always does after I make her mad or whatever. I'm done, I don't want to mess with it anymore. Those 3 weeks were soooo peaceful!

When I am around her, I have to come home & call my Dr. because I feel like I need more medication.

OOOOK, peeeace out YA'AAALL. Sorry that was like A waste of space on the Bipolar Support Group Page.

I am on the call list if there is someone that cancels an appointment next Monday. If not, I am not able to get in until April 14th to be seen. She says that I need a way to calm down the anger when I get mad so it doesn't linger. I will let it linger for EVER. I hold bad grudges that I cannot seem to help...She wants me to make a list of things that calm me down when I get angry?I really don't know many things?When I need to calm down, IF I am at home, I go to my room, lock the door & lay in the dark in silence. I'm not sure if that is good or healthy, but it calms me down? I try to read, I can't concentrate or finish a book. I try to crochet, I can never finish a project or get it to turn out right so there for I never finish it. I guess I am going to start having to take Xanax's on a regular basis??I filled a script back in December?I have only taken 10 of them?My pdoc says only take them when i absolutely have to..The dr. that prescribed them tells me to take them every day if i have to. And askes me everytime I go in if i need another script?Sooo, I am afraid I will get addicted to them. But, this rapid cycling is for the birds...Does ANYONE no if the Xanax will help with the short fuse?