Listen up non bipolars

Thought for the day, how much better is the world because you are here? You are here with us and you are special to us. You have a wealth of knowledge that you share on here with others trying to survive or help a loved one survive. Not only that you are our friend.

While it is hard for you to understand the non-bipolar perspective it is just as hard for us to understand the bipolar perspective. With the comon thread of helping each other to overcome these hurdles we are here every day learning and teaching each other, this is what MDJunction is all about.

BIG HUGS TO YOU! YOU ARE NOT ALONE, NOR WILL YOU EVER BE WITH US HERE!

GOD BLESS

RED

Now your going back to live somewhere with only $40. in bank and no prospect for income...where you had food and a roof over your head with folks??? Don't know...hope you will be ok....

At times our feelings are so raw that the least thing that most people would just let roll off their shoulders affects us deeply.

I have to be careful how I talk to my son when he is like that, so I know the other side....although, I am bipolar too. He will get his feelings hurt and then I feel badly that I hurt them.

Hope your are doing better. Hugs, Norma

I understand how you are feeling. I have those reactions, alot. It is part of the illness. No matter how people meant to say things, I can take it personally. I react to my boyfriend that way. When, I am going through stress, I get triggered. Before, I got stable on my meds,I was all over the place. I would drop into depression, and feel the way you are feeling. Now it's not so overwhelming, but, I can still react this way. It just happened yesterday. Because of being in therapy, and learning how to not react, and knowing it's not real, and the meds, I was able to stay calm, and allow it to pass. I get really frustrated with this illness. I have come along way in accepting that I don't react to things normally.

My depression causes me to feel worthless, and guilty, and like a burden.

I tend to think other people are judging me, and feel guilty for no reason.

I have hid out in my bed while going through what you just went through. I have demanded my boyfriend to let me out of the car, and when, I got out, I walked across town, and was going to stay in a homeless shelter, because, I felt, I was such a failure, and that he and my kids would be better off with out me. I think our parents can be a trigger, our children, busy stores. Lack of money is a big one. I have become disabled, and was too embarrassed to tell anyone. I took it as a sence of failure.

My parents had strong values about work, and being able to support their children. I felt guilty. My mom is really supportive, and understands. I am still afraid to tell my dad. The truth is. This is an illness, and it can affect every area in our lives. If we don't get help it will just get worse. It doesn't matter what others think. It's not our fault. All we can do is try to get better, and stable, so we can live our lives.

I have accepted, that not everyone is going to understand. My boyfriend still doesn't quite get it. He is getting better, and lets me know, that he isn't mad at me. I am still highly sensitive to his moods. I have learned, that when, I feel myself cycling over something that someone did, I remove myself, and try to calm down.

I think you did the right thing, by going home. I would, tell your doctor if I were you. I coped with that for a long time. I finally got my meds adjusted to the right level last week, and it's such a relief, to not have my illness keep me from enjoying my life, and the people in it.

I never knew when, my illness what rear it's ugly head and ruin everything. Okay, I am done rambling....LOL Hang in there, when You get stable, you will be aamzed how good life can be. It takes time, sometimes. If you keep communicating with your dodtor, and taking care of you it will get better.

I totally do the listening to music until I can't stand it anymore. Recently I have been listening to OneRepublic's "Stop and Stare" if you want the video link on yahoo is http://new.music.yahoo.com/videos/--56660470 This song is so beautiful, and says exactly how I feel right now at this point in my life. I listened to that song by Colbie Caillat, and it is beautiful. She reminds me of Jack Johnson. There was a time when all I listened to was Jack Johnson. There is something very soothing about his music.

About the doc calling a group session with your parents, if you tell your doc that you don't feel comfortable with that he/she will not force you to do so. If they do then get a new doc. I didn't think bp were treated with immersion therapy, so it doesn't sound like a good idea if you are not into it.

Angela

it seems now that i've had some sleep and taken the rest of my meds(couldn't take them and drive last night) I shouldn't have posted this but just put it in my diary.

There alot of us here with bipolar, and those who are spouses of bipolar. Sometimes spouses of bipolars share about their pain, and some of us can relate, and some can't. I tend to try to respect what others post as their feelings, and think everyone has a right to vent bipolar or not. Some non bipolars post things that are disturbing to me, but, I respect their right to their experience.

I feel ppeople with bipolar are allowed to do this, too. It might be disturbing, sometimes to non bipolars. But, I think we need to respect eachothers right to express their feeling, and find suppport in a safe environment with out judgement. This illness is hard enough to live with for both sides.I personally can empathize with both sides of the fence. I personally can lets promote, love and peace. I would like to let p8nt know, that, I appreciated reading your post, and and hope you continue to share your feeling. We are here for.

My dad could get very slighted about small things. One time he and my mom had a fight about pillows for the bed in Sears. Or rather he was arguing and my mom, in her way, (she was used to him after 50 years of marriage) and she just ignored him. She called a couple of days later to say he really liked the new pillows! But I think the real reason he was arguing about such small stuff was because he was so stressed about the big issue (her cancer) and it came out in nit picking. Maybe your dad is concerned about you and does not know how to express it.

CherylAnn, I love your insight about being bothered by something bigger. I didn't realize that bp manifests itself in similar ways within families. This makes sense, though, especially in the sense of environmental factors.

P8nt- Like everyone said, you are not inconveniencing anyone on here with your posts. I actually like reading your posts bc we have so much in common. It makes me see myself from a different perspective, and for your sharing I thank you. Hang in there. Everyday is a new day (and thank God for that!).

Angela