delusions and loss of faith

Obviously this is something that happened during my manic episode. Maybe someone can relate, the bible seems a little less credible when you realize that you also thought you could speak to God and have him answer you through songs on the radio.

I often wonder did the saints have visions or were they just delusional. I don't think there is an answer here. Reality is such a slippery slope for me. LOL I am always questioning what is real and what are delusion?? I wish I had an answer for you...just to let you know you are not alone.

Even the deciples when they preached the gospel on the day of pennicost were charged with being delusional, drunk on new wine (grape juice). But we all know that God had a plan in it. As He has a plan for all of us.

I believe that God speaks to us in many ways. Whether through reading of the Bible, a preachers surmon, a song on the radio, or a conversation with Him in prayer.

You are in my prayers.

GOD BLESS

RED

Post edited by: red1965, at: 03/26/2008 22:49

I have had manic religious experiences, and I have had real spiritual experiences. I have gotten really delusional where I was casting out bad energy from people. I thought, I could see spirits, and all kinds of stuff.

But all my life, I have had faith, and a belief in god. In fact I used to pray, when, I was going through the mania. I still pray, and meditate, and read the bible sometimes. I read other spiritual books, too.

I believe god works through people. I have heard things on the radio, that, I needed to hear. I feel god puts me in places where I need to be. I believe god picked my new pdoc for me. He is just awesome. He new what to do for me. I have been through a few, and this time I prayed everyday before my appointment.

So, anyway, I think everything we go through, and experience is nessacary for us to learn what we need to learn in our life.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts on the subject. I have always believed in God but I must say that the events during my manic episode left me wondering about many things. I'm sure many of you that have had a psychotic episode can relate to wanting to distance yourself from the delusions that you experienced. It took me a year before I would listen to music again!

Actually I have made it past a lot of different things since that happened but my fear is that it will happen again and I have to be more prepared mentally. Not sure if that is even possible but everything that I was involved with at the time of my mania became part of the delusions I suffered.

I just don't want to be the women on the corner preaching that the world is going to end! Actually that is one of the few things I skipped but it seems reasonable that it could have happened considering my losing total touch with reality.

I can relate to what you are saying. I have had some psychotic experiences. They usually were based on religion,and aliens...LOL

I also have a big fear of becoming a bag lady, and being permanently insane.

The fear of being in a straight jacket,and become stuck in a padded cell.

Thank god for meds, and psychiatrist who are there to help us stay away from that. Sometimes those fears can be motivators. Atleast that's what helped me get help. My fears of having another psychotic episode motivated me to get help. I didn't want my kids to see me like, that or lose their mother to this illness.

Hang in there.