Will the mood swings ever stop

Meds aren't going to make the moods all go away, but they will make them more manageable and therapy will help you to learn ways to cope with them.

Your not a disappointment hon, far from it.. I am sure those around you love you and want the best for you, they just might not know how to help you... this can leave them feeling lost too.. is your family and friends aware of how you are feeling?

Holidays are a problem because we are not in our daily routine. Too much decision on what to do today...you know...Routine helps keep me grounded...

sending a hug, Norma

She's right also on it not being part of our routine, having a set schedule is a important part of our healing, but we also have to be able to allow for things that will come up that are unexpected.. while holiday get together's are not unexpected, they are a change in our daily rituals.. I have found it hard over the past few years to allow for any change in plans..

I am fighting right now to get back to where I was in being able to let things roll off my back and be able to go with the flow, I always said when something came up out of the blue "oh, well..Life happens" lol, and it does, the dinner out you were expecting has to be canceled cause you can't get a sitter, or hubby has to work late, or the washer just blew up and your dinner out money has to go on a replacement.. life has just happened..

Family can be one of our biggest challenges, they know what buttons to push to get us going.. we've allowed them to be close, we've been close to them, we worry about disappointing them or them disappointing us... we just have to learn to accept them for who and what they are, as they have to learn to accept us for who and what we are.. if things get a little too much to deal with, take a break, go hide out somewhere for a few moments and get settled down and then go back out in it... if it really gets bad, claim headache and go home if you are not at home already.. if you are having the party at your house, excuse yourself and go lay down for a bit.. just getting somewhere quiet and doing some deep breathing helps to settle me when I get to feeling like I am fixing to explode or I feel like I've been put in a blender on high speed.. emotions and stuff just flying..

I can relate to what you are going through. I have been rapid cycling the last few days. I cycle anyway inspite of the meds they have me on.

I pace myself. I am not arounf anyone but, my kids and boyfriend, but, I still have to take breaks. I go outside, and breath. Staying busy helps. Chocolate helps, too. If, I get to the point where, I am going to blow up. I get the hell out of the situation. I make myself sit, and wait for it to pass.