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Hey all,I wanted to know if its a good idea to get yourself institionalized for being bipolar? The reason why I ask is because even though i have been diagnosed BP1, most ppl don't connect it to my inconsistant work life and my inability to get organized. So Im guessing that if I was monitored for a period of time then maybe my issues will come to light and i will be understood as being sick and not lazy. I have been unable to maintain any kind of employment for longer than 2 weeks for the last 14 years and being organized to obtain any goal ,forget about it. I've only been diagnosed back in Nov 2007 after struggling all these years. I feel absolutely worthless. I just told my wife tonite that God forbid if anything were to happen to her I would be unable to support our children and we would be on the street in the matter of months. I just think I would be better diagnosed if I was institutionalized , because its hard to tell that I have this issue. I have several skills including five I.T. certification ,Search Engine Optimization, I also have a degree in Photography and I've been a financial planner. Most ppl who meet me would never believe that I have this issue. I don't seem like Im Bipolar , but I am. I guess I hide it well. Even my therapist can't tell because I enjoy talking to ppl when Im not having an attack ,Im a jovial and a nice guy who likes to communicate with ppl. Its a Dr. Jeckel and Mr. Hyde type of thing where Mr. Hyde only show up 7-10 days out of the month. My wife said its the male version of PMS(during my lighter attack), if it didn't affect the jobs I get. I just think that if I get institutionalized I would be around some medical practioners when I go thru one of these attacks. Let my know what you all think. |
