2butterflys
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Hello All- I married my prince charming October 20 2007 at a huge wedding with all our friends and family that he wanted. On November 17 my husband began his first significant identifiable bi polar manic episode which resulted in him leaving me (after dilusionally thinking his friends and I were all talking about him and against him at a BBQ- not true ???)and not answering any calls or contact for 2 weeks. When he did return he was abusive, cruel, a whole different person- it was the scariest thing I had ever seen. My family, including my 9 year old daughter, was devestated beyond words. He had shown some signs of this running away behaviour while we dated for 2 years, but not even comparible and never cruel. For six weeks after he returned he remained in an agitated state, watching everything I did, behaving erratically, alternating between scary and loving sometimes hourly- but totally unpredictable. He stayed delusional however, saying he could see'on my face' I was thinking and longing for my deceased husband (??not true) and in a dramatic scary blowup over nothing he left me again 6 weeks after the first. A month after he left me, after sending me hundreds of demeaning and abusive text messages which never ever made sense and ignoring any attempt at communication he called me sobbing and begging for help, saying he had hit rock bottom. I of course tried to help him like an idiot, nursing him back to health, getting him doctor appointments and medications (he finally agreed), doing research checking on him every hour, babying him. Exactly two weeks to the day after his 'rock bottom' he told me to mind my own business, that I was the one who needed medication not him, he is only sick because I drove him to this, and to leave him alone- even that he was going to call the police and tell them I was stalking him!!! OMG- it's still like the twilight zone. He is unbelieveably cruel- saying things to me that are the most hurtful, cruel things I have ever heard anyone say. So here I am again, dealing with my destroyed family and my own completely broken heart. I know that he is sick, but I hurt so bad myself I can't think straight. I am starting to question my own sanity- how could I have been sucked into something like this???? Help me I feel like I am going crazy.... what do I do now. Giving up on him is the hardest thing I have ever done, but his abuse is unbearable. |
