please respond! I need support!!

my hubby will be leaving in about 6mo for Iraq for a year. the first tour he went on nearly killed me. I stayed in bed for almost 3mo, then I threw everything I had into my work. I'm hoping I'll be able to go back to work, but I am going to need all your support to keep me from bottoming out. I tried to commit suicide once years ago, and I don't ever want to hit that low again! while I was in the hospitol even the nurses and dr's treated me like a criminal. they had no sympthany whatsoever and that didn't help with my recovery. thanks for reading! I'm lucky there are support groups out there like this.

Post edited by: suzanner, at: 03/13/2008 04:07

Hang around here and visit, answer posts.... helps keep the mind occupied.

We are here for you, you are not alone!

God Bless

RED

I would be proud to be your "Great Grandpa." (Hey! I'm qualified!)

Just don't isolate. Posts, PM's, diary entries. Just "keeping in sight" will help you keep out of trouble.

Join in with the lounge discussions, and express yourself!

http://www.mdjunction.com/forums/bipolar-support-forums/ lounge

Join one of those free form liberal church groups and acquire tons of instant friends.

Oops! I'm getting manic motor mouth.

Just keep hangin' around okay?

Grandpa Jim

Post edited by: JR1, at: 03/13/2008 20:22

Post edited by: JR1, at: 03/13/2008 20:24

I hit a really bad depression almost a year ago. I lost interest in everything. I had to leave my job, and had been working non stop for 5 yrs.

I know what you are going through. I have hobbies, and didn't feel like doing those, either.

I am finally coming out of it. But, no matter what, i did, i would get sucked back down. I can't take antidepressants. They make my bipolar worse. I take a mood stablizer for my depression.

I also have a therapist. I can check in with her every week. That helps alot. Have you been to therapy?

I have learned some natural ways to help with depression, that even my pdoc has suggested. I know you have health problems, but, maybe you can find something to help. I am getting more excercise. I eat chocolate. I have a good support system, like friends, and my social worker. My family.

You can baby yourself. Take a bath, do your nails. You could do somehting creative. I heard that if you keep moving around,it helps get your energy going.

Have you concidered applying for SSI? This might help you beable to heal from all that you have been through.

I don't know much about you as I'm new to the site and am still figuring out how to use it!!

When I feel a bad relapse of dpression coming, I don't fight it, I prepare for it. I buy loads of bread flour, herbs, cut flowers that have a strong scent, loads of lavender bubblebath and a stack of 'funny' books and even somecomedy videos of favourite film ('As Good as it Gets'with Jack Nicholson or 'Shine')

Then when it hits I spend a couple of days slobbing in bed, feeling piteously terrible (all done secretly once kids and hubby gone out to school/work) and once I feel like I'm just a fat excuse for an existance, I pour a bath and put on a story tape or a comedy show on the radio - anything that connects me to 'life' outside of my shell. Next is making bread, with favourite music blaring, sniffing flowers watching a film and treating myself with favourite naughty food. It doesn't always work immediately, but somehow it gives my medication a foothold again,as I destress and stimulate my senses. You may have to label favourite film and food etc cos when we are depressed we forget what it is like to enjoy anything, but preparing for dpression is better than fighting it outright. Keep in contact with this site and there has to be a thousand things you could turn your abilities to. You know this but the bipolarity is cutting into you. Keep in touch with everyone here. xx