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Hi Everyone. Sorry this is long but this is not even the half of it... Well I read some of the posts on here and OMG i almost was in tears. I thought it was just me and that my boyfriend had really weird issues. But I guess that bi polar ppl act this way. Here is my story please read it and help me i feel so alone. I met my boyfriend 2 and a half yrs ago when I was 19 and he was 32.I am now 21 and he is turning 34.HE was so charming for the first 3 wks then after that this other person emergerd. We moved in together after about 2 months. and that is when it all came out basically long story short. Out of no where he will explode want to be alone say mean horribe bizarre things that are not even true to hurt me.... he will say he is unsure about us and is is sooo depressed wants to be alone wnats me to go upstairs and even looks like a different person. and will just be miserable and not even want to see me..... then withen 4 hrs he will be singing songs out loud being soooo talkative to me and be sooo nice to me and act like nothing happened. THen when he is the "bizarrely happy" person he will tickle and play really hard and rough with the cat and with me. HE will bite the cat really hard and the cat will cry and then he will get really angry at the cat if the cat bites back. He does the same to me. ANd if I say your hurting me he will not care and look at me like im crazy and wont stop. He also has an EXPLOSIVE violent temper he cannot handle mistakes or anything that goes wrong. like if the host at a reataurant puts ceaser dressing in the bag instead of ranch OMG that will set him off into a rage and "the other" person will emerge. I dont know what to do. He does nothing around the house. He does not sleep alot but instead he sits in front of the tv and plays violent video games for hours i mean literally he will sit there for over 6 hours and scream at the tv and scream at me if I happen to come downstairs. he has even thrown the control at the televiosn and broke our tv HE has also said weird things like that he is the devil. OR that "THEY" are going to get me. When he is drunk he gets really scary. Which is not that often thank god. HE has mentioned things like if you ever see me coming at you with a knife just tell me to STOP SAy what are you doing STOP. HE only said tha once and then if I bring it up later he will say I dont remember that. Or he will deny it and say Im a liar. or that he was "sleeping". he told me that when he was a teenager he tried to kill himself. and that his grandfather killed himself. I know that he would NEVER hurt me. But he has a very bad temper and breaks things and is very un predictable. He does not like change or suprises or mistakes. Its like he has multiple personalities **loving sweet and gentle man that is supportive and understanding,talks about our future kids marrige *** angry,very MEAN man that is violent depressed wants to blow his head off. wants to be completely alone. IS unsure about me and life. ****excessively hyper biting cant be still pacing wanting to be constantly moving and wanting me to move around at his speed I live with these people EVERYDAY and the appear daily. But every week to 10 days we have a HUGE BLOWOUT where he will just become this distant mean person. I dont know what to do.When he has a blowout He blames all of this on me. ANd says that he should be happy with his life he is sucessful at work has money so its me that makes him this way. He recently said that he would see someone if got all the info for him. Which I did do and he did not make an appt.and after a blowout "he said I told u 2 help me and get me info for a psycoligist. ANd you dont want to help me". I think he is Bi polar...has multiple personalities,has serious anger issues. he is verbally abusive and deameans me and be littles me. ANd is violent. CAN anyone relate???? Post edited by: lynn1, at: 03/10/2008 17:54 |
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