Bipolar Support Group

Why can't I be like you people out there that are on their lunch break? Wish I could be around people so I could work and not panic and take that lunch break with you. Going to the gym? Going on vacation? I am crashing , crashing hard. Not suicidal. But melting into the ground, evaporating into the air sounds mighty fine right now. I don't want any "oh so sorry you are goig through tis stuff" I just thought venting might make me feel better, but of course it doesn't. I knew better. I'm goig to go cry now

Vent away... We're listening...

i know you said venting right now didnt seem to help, but maybe give yourself a minute and try venting again...just get it all out because otherwise it just stays inside you, it becomes totally toxic.

im here to listen if you want hun

Dawn, what are you doing with your life right now? There are constructive things you can be doing to give you the structure and positives that you need in your life. Volunteering? My wife even did some work in her tdoc's office for a while (volunteer). It gave her structure along with being in a positive enviroment and the tdoc was able to keep close tabs on her during a turbulat time.

you may require the needs of a full time hobby. I model minatures I then use in a game. Have not been able to do it since Feb. but usually it is really rewarding.

I'm coming down from manic right now. I have hobbies. I love to quilt and do crafty stuff when I'm stable. I used to garden, but now only when i'm manic. I don't know why. At this moment I can't seem do anything except feed, water my dogs and cry. My dogs lick the tears from my face. And it seems this moment may never end.

it gets better, just takes time, something I am sure we all wished we had more of. I know similar feeling than what you are having now and everyone told me that I would feel better. I still have not picked up my hobbying or other things that i used to like to do but things are truly getting better

I'm no doctor, but it sounds to me like you are depressed and should talk to your doctor. Please contact your doctor. We care about what happens to you.

I see my doc tomarrow. I think part of what set this off besides coming down from being manic is my hearing. Yesterday I got 10 pages, 8 of which are very fine print, of what to and not to do, from my lawyer. I am so overwhelmed. Not only do I have to be around people I don't know, I don't do well with groups of people I do know. I used to self medicate with alcohol to deal with that. I don't do that now. I need that $$$$. I really need to win this case.

I'm sure my pdoc will have or help me with the answers regarding this great depreassion I'm in. But tomarrow seems a long way off and thats a lot of tears for those pups to be cleaning up.

It's one more day. Just hang in there and set yourself goals. Break each day down into parts ie. "If I can make it to lunchtime, I'll be alright." Bargain with yourself and try positive self talk.