I drink too much

I know when my medications aren't working right, I want to eat sugar like crazy. I also want to go get s--t faced drunk, too. My mother is bi-polar and an alcoholic. My brother is bi-polar and a sugar junkie. My addictions were people addictions, food, sugar. Counseling focusing on codependency and how to find some freedom from it, really helped me with the need to self-medicate. Owning it in my own mind is a lot better than doing it and feeling guilty about it.

Do you have a good counselor you can truly trust? Can you find that counselor to go through the codependency stuff and help you find some freedom from misery and guilt?

Right now, I'd say, "Just go ahead and drink." Sometimes when we give ourselves the ok to do what we want we free ourselves from 'what we should.' We begin to view ourselves as having a valid concern and not worrying about what everyone else thinks. Then we usually find ourselves more frequently opting out of a damaging situation/addiction until it no longer rules us.

Hope there's some encouragement in the words here!

Hugs!

msbimbo

Hey, if we don't speak up for ourselves, we won't get what we need!

Can you try to talk to your school's student support services to see if they have another person taking care of all the summer needs of the students? They will be the best place to begin to get direction about it all.

Hugs to you, Dear One!

Keep me posted if you'd like. I'm hoping big time for you!

BTW our classes begin this Monday. I felt like a sniper got me when I realized how quickly my summer was over! Hope the rest of yours is good.

God Bless!

msbimbo

Do you know how many addicts and alcoholics in the US have bi-polar and became what they are from "self-medicating" and not seeking the proper kind of help?

I have been clean and sober for almost three years. Right around the time that I noticed the medications were starting to really take hold.

I am not going to say that I don't get the wanting to sometimes when things get really frickin tough.......cause I do. What stops me is the fact that drinking with your meds is BAD NEWS!! Big no no.

I don't miss the hang-overs and I felt worse the next day and lets face it, alcohol is a known depressant and god knows I don't need help in that department. Think about it..........

I have to cut family out of my life that caused and loomed negativity and negative feedback. Those that could not (more like would not) hle por encourage my recovery and therapy, was unfortunately removed from my life........permanantly. (excuse the bad spelling)

No, I didn't want to completely but I had to love myself and those most important to me and make that decision. To have enough respect for myself and understanding of my "weaknesses" and disease to say "I need to make some changes in my life to make my life better."

the family I am referring to is extended family such as uncles, my grandmother (who never treated me real well thru out my life anyway), cousins, aunts, even my own brother (who is a drug addict/alcoholic/narsissistic individual with a horrible and dangerous temper). They made my disease harder by not trying to help me or understand anything about it. They wanted the "ole Dana" back and that chic was long gone.

think about what changes you need to make to love and respect yourself and your boundries..........Dana