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Hi. I'm 17 years old and just graduated a semester early. During May of my sophmore year I was diagnosed with minor depression and ADHD. During the following september i ended up in the hospital after a suicide attempt and was diagnosed with major depression. Aside from these things I have been trhough addictions to over the counter pain killers, my albuterol inhaler, alcohol, smoking and binge eating. I stopped therapy after a year because I was able to convince everyone and myself that I was doing better. After a bad car accident in October, I went back to therapy for binge eating and was diagnosed with PTSD. I have been keeping detailed mood journals and talking to my therapist. Her and I went through the symptoms/criteria for bipolar and I'm we are almosst sure that I am. I honestly believe that the past two or three weeks have been a manic episode. I didn't feel like myself at all, talked nonstop and couldn't control anything. I felt as though i was watching myself make mistakes like going back to my ex boyfriend and smoking. I knew those things were wrong but the part of me that knew that couldn't stop me from doing it. I felt like I was watching myself as if I was another person and there was nothing I could do. The past 2 or 3 days I have felt semi-normal, just extremely drained, like the floor had fallen out from beneath me and I'm trying to catch my balance. My therapist wants me to see a psychiatrist for an evaluation but my mom won't let me because she doesn't want me to be on meds. and is in denial that something might be wrong. I think it's something do do with her alcoholism but she's in complete denial about everything. Does anybody have any advice for me? have any of you ever felt the same way? I know it's confusing, it's just so hard to explain. [img]

Welcome to the group. You will find a lot of people here who understand.

I was diagnosed with depression at 14yrs old. As an adult they finally properly diagnosed me as bipolar.

I would go to a psychiatrist if, I were you. You can get properly diagnosed by an MD. When, i was off of my meds, I would do destructive things, too.

I mostly self medicated with drugs, and alcahol. I got into obseesively dying my hair, too.

Anyway, I am glad you are here. Feel free to vent share or whatever you feel you need to do.