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Hello All, I am so relieved to find this site, as my husband was diagnosed 3 months ago with cyclothymia, and I have been floundering around trying to cope with this ever since. A few years ago he started to have days where he would act very wierd. What I know now as hypomania, and also around this time he became a very angry person. He was on trazadone for a while, as he was dignosed with depresion by an MD. But he wasn't on it long before he decided he didn't need it anymore. The anger continued, as did the hypomanic days accompanied by drunkenness. He has been in therapy now for about 6 months, mainly because I gave him the ultimatum of going to therapy or getting a divorce. He went, but lied about our life and his behavior. Finally, there was a huge and scary blow up where he lost it on our son. He did not physically harm him, but it was a horrible incident. I called his therapist and told her everything and this started them on the road to diagnosing him with cyclothymia. He is now on depakote and paxil. This week my daughter called me at work crying, her dad was once again losing it on our son, and was evidently restraining him (for no reason) and my son was fighting to be let go (by his scary and out of control father) and I had to rush home and intervene. Anyway, I called the therapist again and let her know what was going on, he refused to talk to her. He gives me evil looks, and (creepily) likes to clack his teeth when he is in the midst of this thing. I have made him get his guns out of the house this week, because I am becoming truly afraid for our safety. I sleep with a hockey stick next to me now, when he is in this mood and stays in the basement. They upped his depakote to 1500 mg. What freaks me out further is that he cannot remember this episode at all. He woke up in his desk chair later that evening with vomit on the floor and his cell phone in pieces. What happens if he does this and decides to hurt us? His therapist said maybe he had a seizure? I am so stressed out, and so worried, and scared and confused right now. I don't know what to do. I don't understand his targeting of our son in these moods, where does this bottomless pit of rage come from? His therapist and also psychologist suggest that if I feel someone is truly in danger, to call the police and have him taken away. My husband? This seems like a foreign language to me, having my husband taken to the hospital because he is unstable. And this is the lighter version of bi-polar? I know if this happens again I am going to probably have to call 911, and this weighs so heavily on me. But, I am a mother first and have to protect my kids. This whole situation makes me feel sick. I'm not sure what I am asking for, except maybe someone putting this into focus and helping me make sense of what our lives have become. I would like to know what the right thing is to do, as his spouse. He has his therapist, and I have no one to talk to about this. Post edited by: jodie1973, at: 08/12/2007 20:23 |
