Bipolar Support Group

I don't know about u, but sometimes I wonder if I will ever feel truly happy again. I can remember a time when I was sad, yet living life fully. My diagnosis is hard for me to swallow and the dose of meds I am on raises eyebrows to two of my new Dr's. What do they want from me, to say "It's either this or be committed?" I feel like I have been in a depressive phase forever and God doesn't allow it to end. I have insomnia quite often if I don't take medication and I take a stimulant during the day. This is the only way I can function right now and I want these Dr's to stop treating me like a junkie and get off my AS- already. To top it off, a man I truly cared about just told me he hates me and i sicken him (he is bipolar, as well) and I have surgery coming up that I worry will bring me to a breakdown with anxiety. Someone please comment. There are times that I pray that I don't die from the stress............

I've been unstable for the past 1.5 years due to an inattentive pdoc who refused to treat my rapid cycling and mania. I'm now seeing a wonderful pdoc who takes my treatment seriously, listens to my questions and concerns, addresses my symptoms immediately and allows me to be a full participant when it comes to my treatment. I've recently been put on a new med regimen that is working great. I'm now enjoying my 9th day of stability and am no longer hearing voices for the first time in 18 years. By the way, I take 5 meds for my bipolar. If any of my doctors felt I was an addict, I'd drop them in a heartbeat. I NEED all of my meds. If I didn't have them, I'd be rapid cycling every hour/minute and hearing voices 24/7. Don't give up. If I'm able to achieve stability, there's hope that you can too.

I feel you. I was wondering when I would even be stable again, and then when I would feel good again. I am now stable which feels good, but now I wonder when I will ever feel happy again! I really don't have any relationships with friends anymore because of the symptoms I get. It just keeps going

Sleepless, I am sorry that you are dealing with the stress of surgery and that jackass guy saying horrible things to you. I know I have said many horrible things I didn't mean, and that weren't true while manic.

I hope you begin to feel better every day.

I am suffering with horrible insomnia from Abilify. It is something I haven't had as much of an issue with when I am depressed like I am right now. I felt good a few days ago and now I am back to feeling crummy. It IS frustrating to still deal with the ups and downs on all the meds, and the Doc's dubious attitude is beyond ridiculous (I've experienced the same with my gen doc).

Maybe the best I feel I can do is to try to enjoy the good days to the utmost, and remember those when things look bad like this. I am a writer, so sometimes use that to remind me of good days. I'll write about good times in a journal, work on my gratitude journal, or write off of a phrase for 10 minutes like "I remember a good day when..." I find these exercises helpful.