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Feeling that "here it comes again" feeling in my head and in the pit of my stomach. Sometimes I think I'd rather just stay depressed than go through this cycling. I know it'll pass, but each time, that all emcompassing weariness sets in again. Wonder how many more times I'll have to go through this. Meds have been "tweaked" ad nauseum and still in therapy - 8 years now. I should be used to this by now - - - does one ever really get used to it???? I hope everyone is hanging in. Many blessings to you all, Odyssey

Hang in there Odyssey...I get those feelings too. I am in the process of getting my meds adjusted and I feel the adjustment so far, is not working. Try to think of happier times to get that depressed feeling out of your head. I hate when I cycle 'cause I know I will be crashing really low and that's when I try to reach out with some one on my emergency list. I usually write more in my journal and my poetry seems to flow...keep track of your feelings some how so you can tell your therapist and P-Doc next time you see them. I knew someone in the hospital when I was in last, had a taperecorder and expressed their feelings on tape and shared them with her doctors. I hate those feelings too and is there any form of "normalcy"? to it...Let me know if there is anything I can do....Cappy

Oh, Dear Odessey,

I'm sorry to hear you are going though it again.

You are such an encouragement to me! I hope for you it will be a minimal swing and your return will be quick. You are a precious and wonderful person.

Hold on! Hold on!

msbimbo

Thank you Cappy and Msbimbo - I'll hang in if you two will!

It's funny (ironic), generally when I'm sinking, that's the time when I absolutely cannot reach out - I just withdraw. But here I am reaching out - I guess that's a good thing huh? Actually, I do write - only happens when I'm low or hypomanic. Those in between places are so uncomfortable for me - never know what to do with myself. Ah, such is the life of a person with bipolar disorder.

Cappy, I hope you get your meds straightened out. Med changes are so tough to deal with. Msbimbo, your words are so kind and so appreciated. Many, many blessings, Odyssey

Hang in there Odyssey. I myself dont have bipolar but my husband does and it breaks my heart to see the horrible stuff he goes through. When you feel low remember that here you have helped me personally. I read your postings and I learn more and more each and everytime I come here.

I hope I dont sound generic but hang in there chicky! Like MsBimbo said "you are a precious person". Take yourself to a place in your mind where you found comfort and peace. And reach out as often as you need to here. My husband said he felt odd posting in here about how "funky" he was feeling and you know after he did he found out that so many others feel exactly what he was feeling and it was wonderful.

If it wasnt for you all being so honest and open about what your going through I dont think I would still have a life with my best friend. I learned how to communicate and how to step back here.

I didnt mean to ramble on and on so much. I just wish I could give each of you all a huge hug whenever you all feel low. Just remember your heart is so full of emotions that others may never understand or even appreciate, Just dont let go of the hope.

Take care Odyssey and keep in touch dear.~~~~Amy :0)

Hi Amy, Thank you so much for your kind words and support. I'll get to the "other side" soon. And, I did feel hugged! You're pretty amazing - you have a number of very difficult physical illnesses yourself and yet you do all you can to learn about your husbands disorder so you can be supportive of him. Don't forget to take care of you though. I'm sending you a HUG! Many blessings, Odyssey

In a low and feeling pretty terrible. Not wanting to leave my room and be as social. No desire to do schoolwork or make food. Everything seems overwhelming and I feel like crying on a consistent basis. Bipolar II lows are terrible. I know that the highs will come but I don't know how long my lows last yet- still learning the rhythms. How long do other people's lows last?

This will sound very immature and weird, but when I go through my depression times, I seek physical comfort and surround myself with comfort - how you ask? Really stupid considering I am 49 years old, but I have a soft bed, I find soft and fluffy blankets, and soft and fluffy pillows, and soft and fluffy stuffed animals, and soft soothing music. Then I get in the middle of my bed and get comfortable and just 'zone out'. Sounds weird, but it is comforting for me to be comfortable. Maybe you can find something there in the mix that will help you. Best wishes , it does get better. But we know the cycle never ends, so I just repeat as needed.

I forgot to add, I have an emotional support dog, that gets up in the bed with me, he loves the soft blankets.

Hi, thanks for the advice. I will try that out, anything is worth a try. How long do your lows usually last if you don't mind me asking??