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kateholland78 Posts: 544
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Becca, You are NOT a failure. You have an illness - you are human, you are flawed. I know the disappointment you feel when you look at your life - it is very real and I have felt it, too. But it does get better. You've just got to give yourself time to grieve through this. Accepting your dx can take time. But there is always hope. I never expected to feel like living the way I do now, and I was ready to give up, but you never know what goodness is right around the corner. Think of how much you could miss out on. I know (I KNOW) that it's nearly unbelievable at this point, but I promise, things are going to get better. Like Lustrious said, if it takes getitng on new meds, then that's what it takes. You have to do what you have to do, and you can't go on like this. You just haven't found the right med combo yet. You've got to work with your doctor to fine tune them, and you'll see - once you find the right ones, you'll look back on this and hardly remember what it was you were feeling. I promise. If it could get better for me, than it can definitely get better for you. I'm praying very hard for you. Please, if you become more suicidal, call the hotline. Maybe you need to go to the hospital for a while? Somewhere you can go to get your meds adjusted, and you would be safe from even trying to harm yourself. I know with three little ones that may seem unthinkable, but they've got their dad, right? (((((((((((((BIG HUG))))))))))))))) In learning to know other things, and other minds, we become more intimately acquainted with ourselves, and are to ourselves better worth knowing. |
