hypomania-he called he's fully in an episode

It sounds like you are beginning to establish some healthy parameters. You shouldn't have to walk on eggshells all the time. I grew up in an alcoholic home and know all too well how that feels. Now it's his turn - - he needs to stay on his meds if he is to have a fighting chance of managing his illness. Therapy is also so incredibly important. Take good care of you. Many blessings, Odyssey

Does the medicine not stop the paranoia? He said it slows it down. I see him taking his meds so I'm not sure why it is having such a presence.

It doesn't seem to be limited to me either. It is directed also at his friends and family but mostly directed to me.

The important thing I try to remember to keep me groudned is that it is not him it is the disease talking to me and telling me these things. His mind is playing tricks that he cannot understand. His heart tells a very differnt story.

I try to always make sure that I am centered and feel like I am in a strong secure place with myself. If not this disease will consume both of us. I have my ups and downs but in the end I know that God will find the right path for both of us.

I also still have some paranoia and I am on meds. I think it takes time to get the right combination, and get stable. I also wonder if he might have some other stuff going on. I had had some conspiracy theories about aliens, when I was younger, and the government.

I've focussed my psychosis onto my fiance, too.

The poor guy. I was suspicious of him doing all kinds of things, he wasn't doing. He lived with this for 4 years before I just recently got help. It is such a relief to not be haunted by all of that, and beable to separate insanity from reality.

I hope your boyfriend comes out of this soon.

I also hope you are taking care of your self.

It's hard to hear everyday that you are "no good" but I know it is the disease and not him talking. I am strong in who I am and feel good to know that everything he is accusing me of doing I haven't done. Ironically everything he is accusing me of doing is the exact opposite of who I am. Going to bars and picking up men etc. I have been sober for 9 years and haven't gone to a bar in at least 5.

He lost his job so he wasn't taking his meds as he was supposed to, trying to conserve them due to the cost. We are working on establishing a life routine for him so that hopefully he can get back on track.

I finally crashed really hard three months ago, and got help. I am relieved. Once I got on meds, I felt the relief, imediately. I wwasn't completely leveled out but, the highs and lows weren't so bad. I was able to slow down and communicate, or take a time out.

It got a lot easier on my kids, and boyfriend.

I was calmer, and could be present.

I hope your boyfriend can find this, too. Its a hard road but its worth it. I am it therapy, and take meds. Its like learning how to deal with life all over again. Its also hard to get used not being manic.

We like it. The depression hurts, though.

Thats enough from me, good luck, Gypsy