Bipolar Support Group

I have been feeling a bit down lately, not depressed, just down. I feel like my meds are working because I have been pretty steady - going to work, getting things done, functioning well at home with my family . . . BUT something seems to be missing. I have this feeling that part of me has gone away somewhere and I con't find it. There used to be this fun-loving perky side to me. Quick with a joke and loving life. Now, I am just living it. I enjoy things - my work, my friends, my family. It is like there is a veil in front of me and it is blocking out the sunlight. It hurts and I want it back - that fun side of me that loves and feels and shines in the sunlight bright on my face.

Can anyone relate?

I feel the same way Dani. I've never heard of it explain with the veil, but thats just how it feels. I'm am so stable but the fun side has gone out of my life. I have started to look at it this way. This is the new me, I have to get to know the new me, I have to incorporate the things I know are me into the new me. Does that make any sense? I have to be stable, if I'm not I'm out of control. So the trade off is a little bit of fun. Which with work, I can return to my life. I'm working on it. I try to get playful and fun loving whenever I can. It takes work, but I'm determined to do it. I wish you luck in finding the new you too.

Thanks, it does make sense. I have been trying to think of it that way because I know the alternative and it is bad! I laugh and think so I am 35 and now I have to "find" myself. Baby steps I guess, like everything else.