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LaLune Posts: 37
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I've been having some bad Intrusive thoughts for a few days now, and they really upset and disturb me and my whole day. They aren't so much just images that I can label and move on from, they have been little day dreamy story like skits and I lose time. Does anyone else get these and do you have any advice about how you handle them? Any tips? Post edited by: LaLune, at: 07/13/2012 08:12 PM “Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and life to everything.”
― Plato
*When life knocks you down... slowly get back up, smile, and very politely say "You hit like a b*tch."
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BlueSummer Posts: 23
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Hello, I've been a long time reader of these bipolar forums, but have never created an account until now. I relate to your post so much, LaLune, and just had to reply. I am so sorry that you have to deal with these thoughts. I have also had these kind of intrusive thoughts ever since childhood and they are tormenting at times. As a child and all the way until recently, I thought that I was just evil and bad. But thanks to a wonderful therapist, I realize now that I am not. They are merely thoughts that my screwed up brain creates. It's like a cruel game that goes on inside of my head. I will slip into the same kind of experience like you mention. I've always described mine as mini movies that I cannot escape. The harder I try to escape them, the stronger they are. Like an itch that needs to be satisfied, except they just make me feel worse after they are done. I've been left in such emotionally wrecked states from these that I will lay down for hours before I get my strength back. I've noticed that these thoughts trigger my bipolar and cause me to slip into a depression when they start happening very often. I am now on a medication for impulse control issues that have resulted from the bipolar, and a plus is that it has helped me with the OCD a little too. The thoughts still come, but I've noticed it's a little better now. I take Guanfacine (generic for Tenex). As my pdoc explains it, the medication helps the frontal lobe area of the brain, where impulses are managed. OCD comes from that same area of the brain she says and so that is why the medicine also helps that a little. I've also tried to remember what my therapist and pdoc have both said about the thoughts. They remind me often that they are not a character flaw or a sign of who I am. They are rather mere thoughts that my brain is creating because of the OCD. That's not always easy to remember when they can get to be pretty graphic in detail, but I try my best to remember that, talk to my therapist and pdoc about it when they get harder to handle, and stick to my meds. I know how hard it is to talk about these things, so I commend you for bringing up this topic. This is something important I feel 'cause I think a lot of people have them, but are afraid to talk about them. Take care of yourself, and please remember that you are not a bad person. It's taken me a long time to finally accept that, and I still need to remind myself that often. But, I realize now that it's true. Post edited by: BlueSummer, at: 07/13/2012 08:33 PM "OK, I'm weird! But I'm saving up to become eccentric." ~ Anonymous |
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bettyboop29 Posts: 111
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i deal with this often i think it has to do with the mental illness...i totally agree talk therapy is probably the best thing to do so you can get your feelings out finding a good therapist is important too and i know that can take time i hope you start to feel better soon Ericka xxxooo
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LaLune Posts: 37
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Thank you both for the advice. I was seeing a therapist up until a few months back but she wasn't very good. I am going to ask my Doc when I see him Monday if he can refer me to a new therapist. I've also wondered if Hypnotism would help with this, but I've heard mixed opinions about it's effectiveness with anything. It might sound crazy... but I'm willing to try anything. A few of the situations where this bothers me the most, is when I am at work, or driving and I blank out into these thoughts. Thanks again. “Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and life to everything.”
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Aravis Posts: 675
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LaLune this is off topic, but.... I LOVE your Plato quote. I am a massive music fan and musician  Music really does give us life!! xx Bipolar 1, BPD, anxiety
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MsAspiring Posts: 1218
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I sometimes have intrusive,violent and manic thoughts. Through DBT therapy, I have learned to accept and acknowledge the thoughts and gently move beyond them. I am glad you are reaching out for help. I hope you find some peace with this. Also want to extend a warm welcome to ((((BLUESUMMER)))) Thank you so much for creating an account and we are glad you decided to post! Old User Name: ApRILGeTsAngry77
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LaLune Posts: 37
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Thanks Aravis!! I just did some reading about DBT and it sounds pretty interesting, I'm a look into that. I've done CBT but it felt like it only went so far, it helps me in low stress situations like feeling anxiety in a crowded grocery store line.. stuff like that. DBT sounds good! Thanks you guys for all the help! “Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and life to everything.”
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LaLune Posts: 37
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And Bluesummer - thank you thank you thank you, it felt like you read my mind, your post really calmed me right down a few nights back, THANK YOU =) “Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and life to everything.”
― Plato
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BlueSummer Posts: 23
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You are so welcome, LaLune.  I'm glad that my post could bring you some comfort. And, thank you so much for the kind and warm welcome MsAspiring! I appreciate you both for making me feel at home here already. "OK, I'm weird! But I'm saving up to become eccentric." ~ Anonymous |
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