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My pysch doc and pysch nurse (counselor) tell me I am MDD with anger issues over a divorce. He won't sign but has a girlfriend, i pay him alimony...ugly. for about 4 yrs i have been hypersexual by your description here. That never fit my personality. The Family doc tried to 302 me and i went on the run for a few days. Came back went inot IOP and was diagnosed at that time. I take Pristiq 100mg inAM, Abilify 10mg in AM, Xanax thoughout the day(.25 or 1mg)totaling 4 mg per day. I have a "BF" but find him to be too tame at times but very loving. He always tells me I am hardwired like a guy. I hate to talk to the shrink so I tell them what they want to hear. I even was screwing some guy that I never would have thought to be with other than for sex (way different politics but good sex). He ended up marrying someone. Am I crazy?Obviously right? Aren't we all.

Welcome, Justagirl. I don't know what MDD is, but I know what it's like to be hypersexual, and it's really not a good thing. It makes you engage in risky behavior at times. I don't like using the word "crazy" to describe someone. I am not a doctor and cannot diagnose, but it just seems to me that if you were honest with your pdoc, your medications would be adjusted and this would stop. They can't help you when you don't tell them what's really going on. So, that's really my advice to you, be open and honest with your pdoc about it. I take 30 mg of Abilify at night. Again, I am not qualified to diagnose, but your pdoc might adjust your meds if he/she knew what was going on.

MDD-Major Depressive Disorder. I have had 4 different counselors...I don't like talking about this in person. I get embarassed. My pdoc is very nice but you only get 5-10 minutes with the pyschiatrist. He relies on the pysch nurse. I am doing things that I don't think are like who I was...the sex relationship with that guy before he married...that was all we were (2-3x day), I drink but don't get drunk. I never know if the right answer to do you get drunk? is supposed to be yes or no...I don't know which is worse. I drink but don't get drunk.. Sorry about the "crazy" comment that was insensitive. I didn't mean to offend anyone. I just know that I am crazy. I have thought that if i saw the soon to be ex along side the road in an accident...I would show my ID and tell them that I am his wife (technically true) and that he is a DNR (do not resisitate) and I want to donate all his organs...lungs, eyes. skin...heart if you can find one. Anger gets the best of me. I feel it coming and can't stop it. Then I get hypersexual for days. Thanks for listening. And 302 is when they try to involuntarily commit you...I was not happy about that.

I can understand the anger, and it sounds like something you need to work through as difficult as it may be, for your own well being. It's hurting you, not him. The fact that your anger is followed by a spike in hypersexuality is something you should look at, too. That should be another reason for you to try and work on the anger issue. I'm not saying at all that it's easy, because it isn't, but it's something that is conquerable. As far as the drinking, I would say what you told me, the amount and frequency. The frequency is just as much as issue as whether or not you actually get drunk.

Keep posting, we're here to support. I know you will make friends here. It's going to be slow today because it's a holiday, so don't be dismayed if you don't see a lot of responses.