Bipolar Support Group

i have a dr appt today at 9am she is suppose to add an antidepressent today whch she should have added a long time ago...i dont understand yesterday i was i a pretty good mood, but this morning all i wana do is stay home and sleep the day away...i hate feeling so sad all the time...i hate living so ,much that i go to bed at 3pm and i get up every morning at 2am..by noon im exhausted...the dr i go to operates out of a state run fre clinic so she is limited on the meds and dosage she can give me...right now im on 750mg of seroquol 200 mg of lamictal 300 g of trazadone and 1 mg 3 times a day of klonopin...the only meds that seem to help is the seroquol and trazadone to help me sleep...right now nothing in my miseable life makes me happy...i hate going out side the house and i usually stay in my jammies all day...i wan to call her and see if she can just call in the scripts but like isaid since it is a free clinic n free meds she usually wants to see me first...it is going to take every last bit of stenght to go see her today...after i do plan to lay in bed the rest of the day

Its no wonder you are tired during the day your sleep schedule is off. I was waking up in the middle of the night and not wanting to go back to bed i was becoming sleep deprived my psychiatrist (pdoc) gave me Seroquel this med has helped. An antidepressant may help bring you the 'up' mood you are looking for, i'm very sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. I find staying at home is my comfort zone i too have trouble leaving my house a lot of the time i struggle even to walk my dog daily which is not a long walk she's 14 yrs old we don't go far. I do have therapy apts and pdoc apts i go to and I need to start to get ready slowly about 2 hrs before I leave so i'm not so rushed and feel less stressed but once i'm out of the house i enjoy my outing i listen to my music on my mp3 player while i take the city bus.

I wish you all the best for you apt. you may need to push yourself to get out it is better for your pdoc to see you in person. Do you see a therapist? It may be a good idea if you consider going to therapy sometimes therapy is needed in order to bring stablilty sometimes meds alone does not do it, i wish you well.

Post edited by: Dit, at: 06/15/2012 04:33 AM

I can't say that I understand how you feel, because I don't. But, I am so sorry you are feeling this way none the less. I think an anti-depressant may do you tons of good. My p-doc stabilized me with Depakote, Clonazepam and Trazadone ... but I was only stable at the high side of depressed and barely hanging on by a thread. I couldn't even talk to the p-doc about how I was feeling without falling apart three or four times during a 45 minute discussion.

The later addition of the anti-depressant, Zoloft, was the missing ingredient in the cocktail. I feel more like the 'old me' (not the old me) than I have in close to twenty years!

So, with that being said, go to the medicine cabinet and grab your bottle of courage, your bottle of strength and you bottle of wisdom. Take two of each, pop them bad boys in you mouth and was them down with a big tall glass of Orange Juice (calcium enriched with vitamin D added ... of course!) After doing so, pump out about 20 push-ups, 50 jumping jacks, and 15 curls to get the blood flowing. Then take a luke-warm shower (not hot, that only relaxes you) to wash off all the sweat and go see the doctor!

keeping you in prayer and wishing you the best!

Post edited by: 2ofme, at: 06/15/2012 06:31 AM

I can relate to how you are feeling- but only when I'm in-episode, or severe pain from fibromyalgia... It's hard to get out and do the things we need to do when feeling that way- however I generally feel a little bit better when I do- feeling the sun upon my face helps. Sorry for your pain right now, but remember it won't last forever - even tho I know it feels like it will. I've started watching slap-stick type comedies when I feel down- its easy to sit and get squishy comfortable in misery- listen to sad music for example- just wallow in my sadness, sleep so I don't have to be conscious- fight this behavior as best you can and try to remind yourself of things you are grateful for... And of course if the depression leads to suicidal ideation get help quickly... In the depressed state, I know for me, I no longer have control over self destructive actions. Peace to you.

Angel992,

I know exactly what you're saying, I have the same difficulties. I suffer from Fibro, Chronic Fatigue, Chronic Pain, RA...the list goes on and on.

And, I completely relate to NOT wanting to leave your house..I have not been out in over a week! I have gone as long as 6wks without leaving, it's not a good feeling, and I am terrified how I am impacting on my 17 year old daughter. I don't want her to become Bi-Polar ( I was diagnosised with Manic Depression ). It's not that WE choose to be this way, I don't know why I am this way but I am. I have doctor's tell me that is due to life situations that have happened but that doesn't take away the pain! My mother was murdered in 2008, and no one was ever brought to trial for her death. Soon after her death ( we lost both of our dogs we had for over 10 years - I know some people would say...oh, wow a Pet ~ but, unless you're a pet person you don't and won't understand the loss.) One of our dogs passed away within 3 mths of my Moms murder and then the other one passed on Christmas Eve of that same year. It's like one thing after another in my life, and sometimes talking to doctors that just sit there saying ~ uh, huh..I understand is NOT what I need, nor being doped up on Med's where I feel spaced out constantly is a answer either! Sometimes I just need someone to talk too. And, my husband is of NO help...sometimes I think he does more harm than good...he has not held down a job longer than 6mths to a year in the entire marriage of 18 years! He knows that I am in desperate need of insurance so I don't have to go to the local clinic but yet he quit his job...that he was ONE week away from insurance coverage (BCBS) insurance to be exact! And, if I mention it ... I'm being the B*tch, nagging him, etc. Needless to say ~ yes, he has also had an affair on me right before my mother was murdered he came clean. So, I had that to deal with..my Mom being murdered on Aug 31, 2008 ~ my birthday being Sept 1st. So, on my birthday I planned my Mother's funeral. Well, I will end this post for now...I hope that I can make some friend in this group that I can talk to and share things with. ~ Sissy