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oc126 Posts: 9
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Fuck. I was doing so good the last couple of weeks. I have that feeling in the back of my head and anxiety as well. I took extra seroquel which I know my doctor would agree with along with lorazepam and propononol. I'm desperate. I have to be at work tommorow, I took many days off already due to this disease. Who can I ask for help besides 911 Post edited by: oc126, at: 06/14/2012 10:49 PM |
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MissyRoo  Posts: 29
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I thought about calling a crisis hotline. Sometimes it helps just talk with someone about it. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, and the strength and courage to change the things I cannot accept. |
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centerseeker Posts: 2852
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Not a bad idea about the crises line. I feel for you. Try to keep your sleep as normal as possible and maybe take some nice long walks. Post here to vent as much as you need. Your in my thoughts. "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanore Roosevelt
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I'm sorry you are dealing with another episode and trying to work too... I remember those days, the last day I tried to go to work I couldn't because I was so depressed and missed many days... I started driving to work and couldn't stop crying- turned around, went home and obviously unsuccessfully tried to overdose... I'm on disability now- eventually the illness took over and I couldn't function anymore. I admire your strength to continue, while I know it's hard... If you feel you really need it- check yourself in, call 911, whatever you need to be safe. I took FMLA (family medical leave act) while I was working... If you need to- it protects your job - its confidential, your employer can't question it. Get in touch with human resources or EPA (think that's what it's called)... Wishin you the best, please take care of yourself and let us know how you are doing. Your joy is your sorrow unmasked. And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears. And how else can it be? The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain. Kahlil Gibran
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I agree there are crisis lines you can call, we have one in the city I live in for mental health. I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this feeling of becoming manic, i'm glad you have seroquel and lorazepam those are two good meds to keep this in check. I wish i can give you more advice, if you start to feel real sick don't hesitate to call 911 or go to ER right away, i wish you all the best, take care. Be Still and Know That I Am - Scripture
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Pandaman Posts: 3
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I know nothing, lets be clear. But for what its worth... I have found that as it starts to creep on, you need to be AWARE. Aware of what you eat/drink, keep your sleep regimented, do the same things you usually do, try to stay the course. Are you physically active? Even if your not, in the morning do a nice long strech (or maybe a yoga class) and take a walk outside. For me it gets my blood flowing to the brain and helps me get a better handle of the flood of thoughts from my brain. - And besides that, just know that while you may feel alone in this moment, others have been their before. YOUR NOT CRAZY, your heads just funny, mine to. It sucks...but lifes not fair. So lets not dweell on it sucking. Lets FIGHT IT! Lets do everyhting we can in our lives to keep in under control. I quit driking, quit coffee, quit my old friends and lifestyle, took up exercise, got in great shape....and as of now its still a daily battle. But one that I am winning, after 5 long years, and one I will be fighting the rest of my life. I dont know you, and I likely never will. But know this, we share a common struggle, your not alone, your not fucked up, but in the end only YOU can slay this beast. I dont believe in god, so im sending good vibes your way.!!! Post edited by: Pandaman, at: 06/15/2012 03:29 PM |
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oc126 Posts: 9
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Thanks all. My doctor called and basically said to to what I did last time... more seroquel Actually, the person who mentioned food made a good point. I haven't been eating dinner the past week because of smoking nicotine via an ecigarette. Excercise can only go so far once I feel it going on the brink though. I ended up sleeping in today and missing work. I feel much better now, but my boss is not happy. I told them that I "couldn't sleep" and now they are saying I need to start using vacation days even though I was actually sick(we have unlimited sick days). I don't want to use the FMLA law because it is likely I will be back to work on Monday. has anyone here ever reveal the illness to employers? P.S: someone also showed me this video which confuses me because I was feeling great before, maybe hypomanic. http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=g5VLtJeeEpA Post edited by: oc126, at: 06/15/2012 03:46 PM |
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I was hospitalized while working at one job a long time ago, and my family had to call them and let them know what was going. Needless to say, even though HR said everything would be confidential, the day I returned to work everyone was talking about how I was in the looney bin and apparently tried to kill myself. Great! My other job though, my boss was really awesome and she made it so much easier for me to talk to her about how I was feeling. She understood that I had days I just couldn't function. It's always hit or miss in my eyes telling an employer. |
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oc126 Posts: 9
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I went back to 400mg seroquel for 1 day and now I can't sleep. Just took another 300, so 700 total. I can't afford to miss work. This is so frustrating. I'm perfect otherwise! It's like I'm so excited for the next day I can;t sleep. Benzos don't work either. Anybody else have this excitement? |
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