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They are selfish **********!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We went back and forth until it finally got in a physical fight.

Then they both ganged up on me.

I buy her everything and him too.

They don't do shit for me and when I asked if I could contribute to dad's gift they said no.

I am shaking.

Now I am crying.

My arm kills now.

I lost my crucifix necklace this week.

I lost my camera two or so weeks ago.

I have been so freaking manic.

I explode.

I cannot stop crying.

I have racing thoughts but crying which makes no sense at all.

I cannot take this anymore.

I have one more week of school and then no more pay.

I have been working my butt off cleaning and organizing at work.

I need to clean my room.

I wish I could stop crying.

My head is screaming.

I hurt.

I keep having seizures.

I am trying to do the right thing.

I have been exercising like crazy.

I am crying like crazy and have no one to talk to.

I am writing this post when I know it will just sit there.

No one will comment.

I am alone in this dark world.

I have locked myself in my room.

Plus I am turning 30 July 4th and I am afraid.

All though out my childhood and adult years I never thought I would make 30.

Now what?

I can't even breathe because I am crying to hard.

I have racing thoughts and was flying until I snapped.

I forgot my morning medications today.

I wish I could have a hug.

Big Hugs!!!

I wish I could give you a big hug.

It means so much to know that you care.

And...

I want OFF of the roller coaster at this very moment, thank you!!!

ENJOY YOUR RIDE!!!

I am sorry your sister and brother are being such twits. I hope you find your camera and crucifix. I hope your thoughts slow down and you are able to find peace.