  Hi everyone, As most of you know, I have been in deep depression for about two weeks now. It has been getting steadily worse and worse. My doctor is away, and the locum he left in charge wouln't admit me unless I am suicidal. (thinking about lying about it.) He gets back this week and I am making an emergency appointment tomorrow first thing, before I do do something stupid! On Friday I decided to have my best friend and my Eldest daughter and her boyfriend over for a fancy dinner as I is my birthday next week. I had a complete 'melt down' in front of every body, hysterical crying, shaking,paranoia, helplessness. Boy it was bad. couldn't cope with that again in a hurry. Unfortunately I am feeling rather close to another episode. I honestly feel as though I am cracking up. Holding on by a thread, literally! I have been doing alot of rocking, tapping and other repetitive things that usually calm me, but its not! Not even ativan or xanax brings any relief! And with the cold weather approaching my fibromyalgia is acting up alot! How is everyone else? |
u look after urself and hopefully feel betta soonx
