Bipolar Support Group

Well after a few weeks of feeling great im now going on a down hill spiral and i hate it. Im moody and feeling depressed..but thoughts going through my head and worse now im just realising the sexuality side of bipolar is getting out of hand. I have not cheated but i can see why i went so wild when i left my cheating husband. But now i am back with him i feel like im all alone even with him around. It weird i just feel empty alot. He doesnt satisfy me that much any more and im turning to porn and not even normal stuff its just getting out of hand. Its like i need it all the time and when his not home i do it myself and end up more satisfied though. And even worse is now i have gotten help he is using it against me. He says things like "Whats wrong with u, you have split personalities, what did i do This time with a roll of his eyes." and the list goes on. Im over it and over hurting. Why cant i feel numb all the time and feel normal or not feel anything like i did for those few weeks???

Do you see a doctor?

On several occassions my pdoc told me that having symptoms for a day or even three is the nature of the 'beast' even on meds. Anything that went on for a week was a reason for a call to her.

I'm sorry you are going through this. It is hard to feel badly after several weeks of feeling good. Please consider talking to your doctor.

They hyper-sexuality usually comes from hypo-mania, but you say you're depressed. Could you be in a mixed state? You sound more depressed than hypo-manic. Confusing huh? I'm sorry your husband isn't satisfying you. Could it be the feelings you are feeling toward him making these remarks? It's not right for him to say these things since you are getting help. It's discouraging. Getting help though is the best thing you can do for yourself regardless of what he says. Feeling numb isn't the way you are supposed to feel on medications. I would get in touch with your psychiatrist and see what he says because you probably need a medication adjustment. I'm sorry you are having these feelings. I'm sorry it's made a turn for the worst since you've been feeling good. Be sure to call your psychiatrist and please let us know how you are doing.

It's really interesting, as I learned from a therapist, that an individual with bipolar disorder who is depressed can have manic/hypomanic symptoms and an individual with bipolar disorder who is manic/hypomanic can have depressive symptoms. Bipolar changed the rules and forget to let us know. Stink.

well top it off im now in my loungeroom balling my eyes out while hw is our bed not giving a Shit that he has hurt me so much. he prefers porn over looking at me. he prefers young sluts over me. i just can't take this any more. why won't someone just love me

Well that is just awful and painful. I am so sorry. Do you think he would consider couples therapy?

I don't understand why he would turn to porn when you are ready to go. Couples counseling would do you good, I agree with center. It sounds like he's got a problem if this is happening. I'm very sorry that this is happening. He should like you being hyper-sexual. Any guy would usually. I hope this gets straightened out for you two. I would stress the counseling. I hope this gets better for you.

he says its just normal and doesnt effect how he looks at me. But i know he doesnt look at me the same way any more. He prefers young 18-19 year olds that havent had kids yet...he has proved this by what he looks at and having the affair with a young girl. he never and i mean never cracks onto me or makes the first move. we could go weeks without doing anything if i didnt start things. he shouldnt have to go to porn when he has a very willing wife. He says he does it out of habit and doesnt even releave himself anyway. its upsetting and i had a massive cry about it and completely broke down last night and he just laid there and watched me cry and then i got up and laid on the lounge balling my eyes out and he didnt give a shit. I cant take any more of this. I sick of being the bad guy or the crazy one! he made me sit there and watch a doco on bipolar and then asked me questions after. I know i have had it for many years but got horribly worse due to his affair. I just cant catch a brake any more and im over it all!!

help i need a new drug!! zyprexa is making me so fat!!! my swings are back because of it. my doc put me on duromine to counter act it but im still starving all the time and getting fat gee i would love gastro banding if i have to stay on these!!

I wanted gastro banding but my primary doc said no because the meds would just make me gain it back.