Bipolar Support Group

So I just got out of a 2 1/2 week stay at a state run psychiatric hospital as a result of a failed suicide attempt. This is the second time this year I've ended up inpatient. I feel like I just keep running in circles when I should be moving forward. But moving forward to what? I lost my job in January after a failed attempt and subsequent 9 day hospital stay. I'm trying to get on SSDI which most people here know how difficult that is to get approved. It has been extremely difficult for me to accept that I need to go on disability. I feel like a failure at life. When I was in college I had such hopes and dreams. Now at age 34, I have very little to show for it besides more emotional baggage. I'm scared all the time.

Glad to hear you made it this far.

Two steps forward one step back, my futures right on track.

Just hang in there.I can't promise to have all the magic answers but I can babble inconsistently, or incorhently if you ever need an ear. If I'm on, and you ever need to vent feel free to hit me up.

I'm so glad you're alright and I'm so glad to see you back. I can totally relate, having fallen down the ladder of 'success' many times. I am not where I want to be at 42, but I finally have an idea where I might belong, and am taking baby steps to get there.

I know you feel lost and hopeless. A year ago I didn't think I could handle and interview, much less a job. I couldn't even finish a job workshop bc there was a mock interview at the end that was too frightening to imagine.

Please don't put too much pressure on yourself and remember you are not alone and take as much time as you need to get to where you want to be.

And of course you can pm me anytime.

take care,

Soy

I'm so glad that you are alright! My gosh, that is scary. Your life isn't over, you have things in this world to do. There is a purpose for you. You may not know what, but you will in time. I hope your stay helped you. Keep trying for SSI, you pay into it all your life by working. I hope that they approve you soon. That would be a weight lifted off your plate. You are not worthless. You have worth and we all know it here. You aren't alone, you have us with you and you can turn to us anytime you want.

I understand the feeling of looking back on your life and feeling there is little to show for it. I felt that way when I joined Facebook and reconnected with old high school folks. Many were already retired and living well. Some had very successful careers and making big bucks. Me? Not much to show for it even now in comparison and I am in my 50s.

I am sorry you felt like you had no other recourse. I am glad you are safer, even if you do feel scared. As Joy said, you have great worth as a human being. You have abilities to share with others and are unique. I know it's hard to see yourself as valuable right now, but you are. Don't give up hope about SSI. It might take some effort to get it, but with the help of your pdoc and if necessary a lawyer, you should get what you deserve and need.

Glad you are out of the hospital. I know what it is like to feel like a failure. My Pdoc always has to go over my 60 year life and take a look at my life as a whole before I got sick. I was actually very successful. However I often get on the pity pot. I am learning through AA to stay of it.

I just got let go from a career I had for 9 years and have been on SSDI because of my BP. Don't feel ashamed, we pay for it, it's taken out each of our paychecks in the even we are unable to work due to medical conditions. Last time I checked, this is a medical condition. Not certain what to say about your multiple attempts at removing yourself from the world. All I CAN say, is things will get better, you just have to want it. I struggle with it every day, I want to go back to work, but not being able to sleep and keep a steady sleep pattern makes it impossible. Just think, it could be a lot worse, I have more to say, but I'll PM you.

Hi, I know how you feel too! i am going on 41, and have accomplished very little in my life. At least you were working, I have never held a salaried job for more than a few months. Left real estate three years ago, no pension, no benifits!!

Some days I feel so despondent. Getting out of bed is difficult. Have also attempted suicide a few times. BUT then I have a good day, and I look around me at others less fortunate, and at my wonderful children, my loving husband, and ALL the blessings in my life, and I realise that I have A LOT to live for.

Don't give up fighting for what is rightly yours, and know that you ARE a valuable member of society!