When I'm truly stable, elated hypomanic, or even regular depressed I think I'm a pretty nice woman. Polite, sweet, professional, etc. But when I'm dysphoric hypomanic or manic I'm like a snake with the most poisonous venom. Are you like this too? And if so, what are some of the nasty things you've done? I'm curious to see if I'm the only one.
Thank God I haven't been like that in almost a year so it's almost a terrible distant nightmare that's hard to recover. I am mean. Especially to my husband. Very mean. I'm pretty mean to myself. Thinking thoughts about being gone or writing out notebooks full of what is wrong with me and how I am a low life.
I wrote a letter to myself all about this state that I put aside to read in the event I ever decide 'i don't need my meds.'
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